it's just so interesting to me how ryujin's presence is a constant nuisance that stands against essentially everything sayeon believes in and wants. it's not just that they're opposites, but that because they're opposites, sayeon ends up caring about and consistently being drawn to her. ryujin can see through sayeon like nobody else can and is a huge brick wall in the face of all of sayeon's plans, even if they have the same goal. whether it be sayeon wanting to get revenge, or wanting to keep her gift a secret, or wanting to use her teammates without caring for them, ryujin somehow manages to breach every wall she’s built up just by existing. she doesn’t work hard or learn, but somehow finds a way to get a hang of sayeon in a way that sayeon can’t have for her plans to work. and yet, for some inexplicable, odd reason, sayeon constantly loses restraint with her, lets herself get pulled into a dozen conversations that foil all her plans just because she desperately wants to say something to ryujin and can't help herself. her powers aren't concrete and are constantly ever changing; they’re not a variable sayeon can concretely predict. but for whatever reason, cold, calculated, strategic sayeon still keeps getting too carried away, risking everything in the hopes that she'll be able to rewind afterwards. practically all of her slip ups are with ryujin, slip ups she can’t have, and for whatever reason, she doesn’t distance herself at all despite that. Hm.
this interaction is also just so unbelievably interesting to me. there was absolutely no need for this to happen. sayeon didn’t need to say any of this, didn’t need to apologize, didn’t need to put any of this out in the open. she didn’t need to open up about her powers and her struggles and the way she wishes ryujin would value her life so that she could lead all of them to a good ending. she didn’t need to give her a heartfelt apology, a heartfelt confession. she put everything on the line, risked her whole plan on some feeble gift she doesn’t even fully understand, just to say what she truly felt to ryujin. and sayeon is such an unreliable narrator to the point where she somehow managed to make a heartfelt moment where she couldn’t control herself and genuinely wanted to apologize and open up to ryujin look like a calculated move, despite her own admittance that it felt good to say that. how gay can you truly get..?.