#s saint

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COME HITHER

Figure out which saint you are and/or which you would pray to in my fictional religion. Warnings for mythology typical violence I guess.

i shall assign u one of 6 saints (see below)

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pray to six ears that you'll have the strength and skill to become anyone other than yourself

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I don’t have OCD and I’m not developing a stutter due to psychological distress. It’s just that six ears likes me best and has bestowed upon me his disease of repetition.

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Fuckkk I can’t look at fanart of macaque it genuinely makes me sick with adoration. No wonder this guy was the first of my doeshima. Guhhhh

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Literally nobody understands the six eared macaque the way I do. Regardless of how the medium or show or reinterpretation portrays him, somehow his actual personality, regardless of iteration, is discarded by viewers. Funny enough everyone seems to want to imagine him as someone who he demonstrably isn’t. Even if who he is in that iteration isn’t as bad as it was in the novel! Nobody wants to see him, and just him, on his own.

But that’s probably what he’d prefer! Yeah sure, only ever think of him as part of a pair. It’s his defining thing, right? That’s all we know, that for whatever reason, he’s made himself into a mimic of someone much more consequential.

Yeah sure rewrite him entirely, make him nicer, make him shy, make him someone you can care about. His real self is long gone, he doesn’t have a face of his own. I guess that’s its own kind of worship in a way. Let him keep changing in your mind, being whoever fits the situation, a guy who only exists to mirror what you want to see, what would be most optimal for him. That’s what he wanted, right?

BUT I KNOW BETTER. I see that hollowness, you can’t trick me!!! Bastard!!!

Ok I should sleep. Bye.

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More six eared saint doodles. Characters love to look to the left in a 3/4ths view

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I really like the religion you're working on. It's and interesting framework that takes aspects of other polytheistic religions and reworks them into something new and refreshing. I know at the moment you have about 6 known Doeshima, are you planning to add more as you continue on or is this it for the moment? I remember you said before that there are technically and infinite amount of them floating are but I'm still curious if you have any more ideas. A Doeshima of misery and comfort would be really cool, someone to feel your sadness alongside you and hold your soul together as you go through it.

I'm so sorry if this comes off as rude, i don't mean to intrude on your creative process 😅 though please accept this prayer/poem(?) I made for Six Ears:

In knowing death we know infinite

In knowing infinite we accept change

In accepting change we become singularity

And in singularity we are human

fank yewww it is literally just my own personal life philosophy which i put into ritualized terms to make it more fun <3

I'm planning to add more doeshima yeah but it's unclear how developed they'll be. I had to really push the development on these 6 so they'd be ready for my final project this month. and outside of a deadline I'm pretty lazyyyy sooooo... idk.

also I'm not sure that soul's are like... a thing? in this framework? if they are then they're only a thing in the way that everything is connected. like a human doesnt have a soul any more than a bug or a tree or a table does cuz we're all made of Same Stuff yknow. that's kind of important sfsdfsdf

anyway: THIS IS SICKKKKKKK that's a sick ass prayer/poem thank youuu. i showed it to my bestie when i first got this ask a few days back. i also told her to put me down if i became a weird internet cult leader but she said she wouldn't do it :/

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Doodlessss of my saint. I’m focusing on the face a lot but I think it’ll come together better once I get the clothing down.