solace.
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seulgi so often makes her life more complicated than it needs to be, in one way or another. it seems to be something innate in her that she cannot control, a fire that rages in her chest and threatens to consume. she’s been through therapy and received diagnosis after diagnosis for what, it would turn out later, was probably part of the struggle of having a crazy set of parents, a proclivity to anxiety and mental instability, and the struggle of coming into her magic at a relatively young age.
as the seventh daughter of a seventh daughter of a long and powerful line of witches the expectations laden on slender shoulders were immense. she was supposed to be this pinnacle of might, redoubled power, brilliant and of course she ought to be beautiful and perfectly behaved and charming and clever on top of all that. obviously this didn’t pan out quite perfectly, leading to her essential exile and, eventually, to baridegi. that, at least, was a blessing.
sometimes she wonders, though, if there really is something innately wrong with her. if there is something flawed and broken and tarnished. there have always been rumors about her family, of dark magics and of her, too. of how she was born far too late in her mother’s life for that to have been normal. rumors that there was magic at play and rumors, later, that perhaps that was what had warped her in some way, before she had a chance. or maybe that was just a convenient way to blame her problems on someone else. these are the kind of idle thoughts that cloud her mind as she treks and teleports in turn up to the mountain temple, nestled at the highest peak of the mountain upon which the school is situated, strange statues decorating the grounds and a still peacefulness that calmed her- although the joint in her hand probably helped, in fairness. she glances sidelong as steps approach, a quiet smile fluttering over her features as she patted the wood beside her, feet dangling off the platform to graze against the ground. “come sit. want a hit?” she offers quite magnanimously.