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[rakija-archived]

Aion, Fool’s Mate [Dec. ‘90]

[steven979]

Me, myself , and I

He calls. Around 11 p.m. to 12 a.m everytime. His number graces my screen much to my dismay. I pause to ignore letting the phone ring.

I wonder if he really is looking for forgiveness. If I answer will all the anger , and hurt flood back onto my life.

Or ,Will he finally start to show that he cares. That I’m more than just A pawn to fuel his drug abuse.

I tell myself these questions that have weighed on my heart for so long. Have lightened since I shut him out of my life for good. Why would I take that back? Why carry A burden for nothing in return. I never want to feel so helpless, and weak again.

He never loved me. He never made me feel good about myself. He never showed me he cared about us. All he ever mentioned in conversations was “I ” never “we”. Can I. I will. May I. And I just. Everytime he talks to me. It’s never about what I want. How I feel. He never loved me, or he should have loved me better.

He calls. His number graces my screen around 11 p.m. to 12 a.m. everytime much to my dismay. I pause from hitting the ignore button…….but I never answer. I just can’t. Not anymore.

[fyeah-oldjapanesevrock]

Rockin'f 1993 magazine scan

page of the band AION. Sorry the scan didnt come out very good...

[asdfghjkllovemeokay]

I miss his voice :/... *sigh...

[asdfghjkllovemeokay]

I hope he calls me or something .. Maybe even texts me.. I always push away the wrong people ):.. And it's a problem & I hope it really does go away once he's here..

[asdfghjkllovemeokay]

I feel sad for my boyfriend because he has to deal with my health. I feel like he feels, one day ill just call him up & tell him I'm going to die😔 it makes me sad.😞😣

[asdfghjkllovemeokay]

When my boyfriend tells me something he's scared to admit. I just love him even more. Asdfghjkl Because I know it took balls. I love him~

[asdfghjkllovemeokay]

Everytime I think about the days getting closer to him getting here, It gets me nervous as hell(/.\) It's real. Him moving is real. Me living with him is real. It's a big deal 🙊 It's legit a done deal✌❤