Conversation with my perfect self
Standing across from me, the figure of someone I've only seen in dreams.
A silence stretches between us as he takes in everything I am, his eyes meeting mine, a perfect reflection of my own.
He tries to speak, and his voice catches, instead he settles for setting his familiar hand on my shoulder.
He wipes a stray tear from our cheek.
"I'm sorry." he whispers.
"It's not your fault." I reply, my voice alien, not mine, not his.
Guilt consumes him contorting his features.
Him, sculpted marble, the beauty of the sky as the sun sets, the moon on a cloudless night, perfect.
Me, weathered walls, broken china, the rot that seeps into the earth.
There is an unspoken conversation that sits between us, one we both completely understand.
He is everything I ever wanted to be, and he knows this. The thoughts of everything he's taken for granted are reeling behind his skull, this is what he could've been. Disgust doesn't cross his face, but we both know he feels it.
We both know he has the urge to drive a blade into my neck, put me out of my misery, although neither of us show it.
And in a way, I have the urge to drive a blade into his neck, too.