TW: SA (I think)
Someone kissed me without my consent while I was drinking with my friend. I pushed him away and got so mad I just made us go home.
My girlfriend has been amazing during this time, helping me process everything, especially since I’ve been a victim of way worse before, but I can’t help but feeling everything is my fault.
My mind keeps going back to when I was raped and thinking “I should’ve stayed sober, so I could fight them off”, and the day that I was kissed, thinking I should have done something different.
I feel so helpless and guilty and like I don’t deserve anything good.
If someone has been in the same situation, please help me not feel like this. I’ve only been talking to my friend and my girlfriend about it, but there’s so much they can do for me. I don’t want to place this burden on them. They both have told me time and time again that it wasn’t my fault and that I’m the victim, but I still feel awful.
Please help.