Hi again 😅 im sorry for second request, its just me loving the way you write Xavier a lot, it brings me comfort and so much recognition, I dont know how to explain it.
I have quite heavy request, and it's okay if you dont want to write that, I was just thinking lately how Xavier would react to Reader who was SAed not so long ago (before starting relationship w him), and he only found out now. Maybe it would happen during their first foreplay, when he notices how tensed and uncomfortable (yet trying to hide it for his sake) the girl is? Maybe she would try to brush it off, ask him to continue (because she was worried about his arousal more than herself?) but eventually after him pleading she told him the truth. I really wonder what his reaction would be.
The request is kind of dark and I understand if you wouldn't want to write it 😅 thanknyou either way, have a nice day 🫶
Thank you so much for another request! I am so grateful that you enjoy my writing so much, and I love seeing you pop up into my requests! I hope you enjoy.
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You were sitting on his bed, legs brushing, close enough that you felt a certain warmness all over your body. Xavier leaned in, and kissed you softly. His hand lifted to touch your waist, fingers brushing the hem of your shirt.
Your whole body froze at the touch.
He stopped immediately, hand withdrawn like he had touched fire.
“…Starlight?” His voice was soft, gentle. “Are you okay? Did I hurt you?”
You shook your quickly, a brief look of panic in your eyes. “No, your hand was cold. It just surprised me.”
He studied you, making sure you were okay, but you leaned back into him again, hoping he wouldn't look too closely.
A minute passed. His fingertips grazed the same spot, gentle and warm.
You pulled back so fast that you almost fell off the bed.
Xavier froze. “My star.” He held his hands up. “It's alright. I'm right here.”
Your breath stuttered. “I'm, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I want to do this, I want you to feel good, I just can't. I don't know why I am like this.”
You didn't look at him. Shame filled your head as you turned away from him.
Xavier reached for you slowly, giving you every chance to move away. When you didn't, he cupped your cheek with both hands.
“You aren't doing anything wrong.”
Your eyes burned with tears and you took a deep breath before speaking. “I was assaulted,” you whispered. “Before I met you. Not that long ago. I thought I was okay. I thought I could handle…this. But when you touched me it felt like my body was somewhere else. I knew it was you but all I could feel was him”
Xavier’s expression shifted, rage first but then it softened, protective in a way that you had never seen before.
“I am so sorry someone did that to you,” he murmured. “You never deserved that pain.”
Your breath stuttered. “I don’t want you to think I don't want you.”
He pressed his forehead to yours, gentle. “I don't want you to give me what hurts you. I want you safe. I want you comfortable. I want you here because you want to be, not because you think I expect anything.”
His hands slid down to hold yours, fingers lacing through yours slowly.
“We can stop. We can slow down. We can stay like this for as long as you need. There is no timeline you owe me.”
You exhaled shakily, leaning into him.
Xavier kissed your temple, wrapping his arms carefully around youfic
“You are my starlight,” he whispered. “Being close to you like this is more than enough.”
