I was having such a good week this week with my back. From Saturday until around Tuesday my SI joint was totally in place (and staying there). It got all swollen and stuff which makes me believe that its the ligaments trying to heal around the joint! That was as stable as its been for the last 10 months! Physical therapy is really working. I have an awesome therapist who totally loves helping me and who wants to see me tighten that joint up to normal and get back to my life. The only problem here is that those ligaments around the joint become loose over and over again causing the joint to slip and also causing very bad pain. Like right now, i put the joint back in place using my foam roller and it made the loudest crunch! Thats not good!! I wish this damn thing would just lock back in place and i could have a normal back and pelvis again. But hey, i got myself to this place and its my job to get out. I will definitely get there one day. I have to. I cannot give up. I have to care! Im going to be administering anesthesia as an anesthetist making 250k a year one day! Thats what keeps giving me inspiration to keep going. No matter what, i'm going to be healthy again and not a damn person including myself and my body is going to stop me. Like i say, I don't deal with chronic pain, chronic pain deals with me!
