Because These Things Will Change

Taylor followed 12:08AM 7/16/15 (WHAT?!) Mandie. 26. Sick Chick. C̶h̶i̶c̶a̶g̶o̶ NASHVILLE. Welcome to my blog! This is where I blog about: Taylor Swift, My chronic illnesses and other stuffs. But mostly Taylor. @spoonieswift91 on IG & Twitter

[spoonie-swiftie]

I dont know if there are worse things than reaching out for help when you’re used to hiding your pain and then having nobody be there...

And yet this happens every single time I muster the courage to say how sick im feeling.

Thank GOD @taylorswift is always there for me. Music, interviews, articles, videos, and this amazing fandom. I’m so blessed to have an outlet even through all this pain.

I hope all my fellow swifties and spoonies know that im here for you always and youre never a burden to me. I love you and Tay loves you and its okay to need to be reminded of that.

So tonight I encourage those of you hurting, whether it be physically or emotionally, to find your favorite Tay stuff and just close your eyes and imagine her giving you a huge hug from behind and saying “It’ll all be okay”. Because it will be.

Because these things will change.

Because pain makes you stronger and Taylor says that those of us who have walked through a lot of rainstorms are clean.

Because bravery happens to different people in different ways.

Because someday you won’t remember this pain you thought would last forever and ever.

Because if you hang on, it gets easier And then it gets okay And then it Feels Like Freedom.

* this was written 2 years ago and saved in my drafts. But tonight I’m in so much pain and October has a lot of bad anniversaries and just having a terrible time so I’m going to take my own advice and curl up with my fearless blanket and my dog and just try to make it through the rest night.

[stellaswift1389]

Taylor, forgive me.

A few days ago I made a post where I promised you I would overcome my anxiety and panic attacks if you ever came on tour in Italy. I’m a fool.

Earlier I was watching a famous italian singer live on TV. There were plenty of people, all standing up so closely to one another in the dark, with the music blasting. What would happen if someone fainted? What if someone wants to get out? I would die there. I cannot do this and I cry desperately because my biggest dream to see you live can’t come true. I’m very sorry. I’ve nothing left to do other than keep on thinking and dreaming about you.

@taylorswift @taylornation @tree-paine

[starsbythepocketfulll]

💜 @taylorswift @taylornation

would love to see more accessible design at concerts, for example:

designated quiet spaces to calm down from a panic attack or sensory overload, meltdown, etc.

maybe even “calm seating” where there is room to move around a little or where the speakers are quieter/not right above you

clear information about what will happen during the entrance and security experience

clear information about when to expect fireworks and other loud sounds

information about the timeline of events

information about emergency procedures

the ability to opt-in to receive an access-focused email about the events when you get your tickets

not to mention clear instructions about buying tickets, getting extra time while purchasing (the process can be so overwhelming!)

and obviously that using any of the access pieces wouldn’t take away from the experience (e.g., using the quiet room shouldn’t exclude you from the chance to get a meet and greet opportunity)

I just feel really strongly that these events need to be more accessible to disabled people, specifically thinking of invisible disabilities here but definitely overall too

@stellaswift1389 thank you for sharing your experience with us and I hope you have as lovely an experience as possible this era 😘

[stellaswift1389]

@taylorswift @taylornation @tree-paine

[revengeoftheswift]

@taylorswift

Lewis Capaldi is doing this for all his biggest shows I think, it would be amazing to have something like this in every big venue!

[stellaswift1389]

@taylorswift @taylornation @tree-paine

[stellaswift1389]

@taylorswift @taylornation

[stellaswift1389]

Please, take me to @taylorswift or take her to me. I need her…her voice (I want to sing with her)…her eyes lookin’ into mine…her beautiful smile…But especially her hugs. I need her more than oxigene. She is everything for me: my life, my world, my best friend, my medicine… And I love her to the 🌙 and 🔙. I just want a joy in my life. I have anxiety, nobody loves me, I don’t have a job so no money… It’s hard. Everyday is like a battle… (🎶)

[stellaswift1389]

@taylorswift @taylornation

[stellaswift1389]

Even if I could have been able to go to Paris (which is not so far from Italy) for “City of Lover”, I wouldn’t have been able in any case to stay on the queue with all the people and for that much time. I would have panicked. So I guess I will never meet Taylor, there’s nothing I can do about it. 😔😢😭💔

@taylorswift @taylornation

[stellaswift1389]

@taylorswift @taylornation @tree-paine

[muziklysound13-deactivated20200]

We don’t know if Taylor is going to do stadiums for her tour again or if she is going to do something smaller. There’s still work that needs to be done for those with disabilities, but in MetLife Stadium for example, I came across this:

This is a step in the right direction, and other stadiums are offering support like this. I hope that if Taylor does play “smaller” venues that services such as the one listed above will be available. I hope that other services would at the very least include:

Accessible Seating

Assisted Listening Devices

Bathrooms

Closed Captioning

Companion Seating

Elevators

Interpreting Services

Mobility Assistance

These are only some of the things I can think of off the top of my head. The tour should be an enjoyable experience for everyone. I realize maybe all of these requests can’t be filled, but at least I know she’ll try.

[stellaswift1389]

@taylorswift @taylornation @tree-paine

⚠️ PLEASE EVERYBODY REBLOG THIS. IT’S SO IMPORT FOR MANY PEOPLE! ⚠️

[spoonie-swiftie]

Yesssss all of this

[strange-occurrences-library]

Anyone else with chronic pain perpetually curious about what a physically healthy person would do if they suddenly had to deal with your body

Like I'm imagining one of those annoying preppy white girls having to deal with my ankle flare ups (which sometimes feel like my lower legs are getting run over by a train)

It's very amusing and honestly a bit empowering? I mean it makes me feel like an asshole* but I am a strong asshole so HAH

*to be fair that kind of girl is very easy to laugh at especially since they're often horrible to anyone who isn't exactly like them so eh I don't feel too bad about it

[loverstann]

Taylor Swift albums as skies

[sighing-cypress]

A redo of this comic from 2019!

[thefibrodiaries]

When abled people’s health is at risk, suddenly all the accessibility and changes that disabled people have been fighting for is immediately put in place.

This is a great take on the issue by @autistictic on Twitter!

[soaringsearingphoenix]

The worst part of human adulthood is being your own zookeeper

[sufficientlylargen]

I want to stuff a pumpkin full of raw meat and roll it around my enclosure, but I also know that I’ll have to be the one to clean up afterwards :-(

[soaringsearingphoenix]

Take steps to minimize the mess! Put a cheap, disposable plastic tarp down in the area you'll be rolling it around. And.. Maybe recognize your species-specific needs and cook the meat first

[soaringsearingphoenix]

Actually, if we're going for species-specific enrichment, a pumpkin may not be the best solution. We're not built for pouncing on prey or batting it around. We're distinguished by our persistence hunting and tool use

What you should do is put a pack of jerky on top of a roomba, go in another room and count to ten like you're playing hide and seek - or use this time to find a tool to use - and when you come back, try to catch it by setting a trap or by pinning it down with a stick

When you want a greater challenge, have a friend drive an RC car full of jerky around the park, and chase it until it runs out of battery

[adhesivesandscrap]

Aliens trying to cure the Clinical Depression of Humans aboard their ships by theorising Earth-Specific enrichment activites...

[handsome-anne]

I feel like it might work tho

[spoonie-swiftie]

Long story short I SURVIVED I’m so thankful for the small glimpses of good this year. Pictures first to last: 12/29- Ending 2020 with seeing snow again 2/14- Valentine’s Day with my lil man 4/01- @companythreesixty in Covid 6/05- Getting groceries in a pandemic 7/23- listening to #folklore for “the 1st” time 😘 (@isabelgannon @longlivethatlook @breakmelikeapromis @dallasinatl) 7/25- Gettimg to “see” overachiever @genetically.clumsy before she left me to get her Masters in London 9/06- My dad, brother @real2jz and Vida coming to visit (safely) 10/12- Parker and my Auntie visiting (Again, safely) 10/23- #voteblue2020 @disabilitytogether 11/15- Flynn turned 2! (And got neutered 😬👍🏼) Not pictured: making new friends, funny FaceTimes, getting my wavy hair back, getting an iPad & learning how to make art while bedbound, listening to so much new music (including not 1 but 2 new @taylorswift albums), discovering how fun TikTok is, turning 29, surviving COVID19, surviving an infection/malnutrition that left me in the ICU for 2 weeks, Biden winning the election, meeting my nurses new baby, and more that I’m forgetting which is on brand Hello 2021! Lord, please let this year be even better. #isurvived #isurvived2020 #isurvivedcovid19 #hello2021 #goodbye2020 #swifties #gratitude #procreator #blueforbiden (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJfvn8bDdKF/?igshid=8clam8oaciab

[spoonie-swiftie]

Long story short it was a bad time... Bye 2020 😞👋🏻 #bye2020 #dontletthedoorhityouonthewayout #longstoryshort #evermorealbum #happynewyear #happynewyear2021 (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJfqyi4DuDf/?igshid=9k9oa4k20cpw

[spoonie-swiftie]

You could say Flynn is... #smilinforbiden #bidenharris2020 #biden2020 #joebiden #joebiden2020 @joebiden @kamalaharris #blueforbiden #dumptrump #dumptrump2020 #smilemore #smilingdog #silverlabsofinstagram #silverlabrador #silverlab (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/CHT6-l-jJM-/?igshid=1cn20fe4cacg2

[spoonie-swiftie]

Because these things will change... If you vote. 👚: @disabilitytogether @isabelgannon 📸: @starlight137 #iwillvote #vote2020 #voteblue2020 #votehimout #bidenharris2020 #bidenorbust #voteforchange #swifties @taylorswift @taylornation #swiftie #swiftieswhovote #diversitymatters #diversityandinclusion #diversityincludesdisability (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGtD-t4DL5l/?igshid=ipvjky2vz9hs

[unlikelykingdomphilosopher]

[screamingiminlovewithyou]

taylor what is this

[taylorswift]

Stars do u like dem

[causewhenyourefifteen]

i guess making music from home wasn’t the only thing taylor learned to do during quarantine

[taylorswift]

My conversations with my mom have always been and will always be some of my favorite memories - from when I was 10 months old in this video from October 1990 to now talking every day on the phone. Our talks are everything to me. Myyyyyyyy goodness I love you Mom. Happy Mother’s Day. 💐 PS for those of you who are separated from your loved ones or struggling with this day, my heart is with you 💗

[spoonie-swiftie]

My mom (who I have lived with all my life and I’m 28) had to leave Nashville mid March to go back to Illinois to help my aunt, who is a surgical tech (like bohkee on Greys), take care of my 6 yo cousin (who is tied with you for favorite person ever btw) since he is out of school & homeschooling now. What was at the time only supposed to be a week or two turned into a few weeks which turned into a month, 2 months tops, and now with how the state of the country is in and especially since I’m very much high risk, I’ll be lucky if she makes it back to Nashville for my birthday.

Right now we are at 7 weeks since I saw her and hugged her last. It sounds stupid and whiny but this is literally the longest I’ve ever been away from her in my entire life. My mom is my best friend. Just like you and Mama Swift. If I could, I would write the most beautiful song. Or stories of all my favorite memories, or what I’ve learned from her, or thank her for everything she’s done for me and gone above and beyond to keep me alive, literally and figuratively, even if I felt (and still feel) I didn’t deserve it. But between crap hand function, brain fog, and too many tears blurring my vision I can’t.

I’m scared so much for myself obviously, with a body full of pre existing, life limiting, and ineptly immune illnesses obviously, it would stupid and ignorant if I wasn’t.

But I’m even more so for her.

If you asked me what my biggest fear is, if tell you “Losing my mom (and the rest of my crazy family, either chosen by genetics or chosen by me)”. Hands down. So, while I’m obviously and rightfully crushed that I can’t be with her today, and although the finish line is fuzzy and the light at the end of the tunnel is dim, I know it’s there.

So even if it’s many motherless months down the line before I get that hug (*fingers crossed it’s not*), as long as my future has her and her hugs in it for a long (LONG, long) time, I’ll keep walking through the dark by myself cause I even if it feels like it, I know I’m not actually alone.

Happy Mother’s Day to my incredible mom, to Taylor (fur babies definitely count) and of course a huge Happy Mother’s Day to my second favorite Mom Ms. Andrea aka Momma Swift ♥️

[gardenofbetty13]

To, Mama Swift a.k.a Andrea Swift.

Dear Andrea ma'am.... Myself Daraksha Surve.... I'm a 12 year old swiftie from India.... I'm a very big fan of your 30 year old daughter, Taylor Swift... She is such an impressive singer (she is more of a friend to her fans though) And I'm so thankful of you that you've always supported Taylor ma'am in every phase of her life and taught her so many things.... For any swiftie, Thanking You in words won't be enough... I'm speechless for all your hard work being such a cool mom. Be the same awesome mom. Hope for your speedy recovery. 😳🙂💘

P. S. I am a fan of Taylor since I was 7 years old. Please convey my regards.

@taylorswift @taylornation

#HappyMothersDayAndreaMam

Happy Mother's Day Andrea Ma'am.

~Daraksha

[sleepybitchcity-deactivated2022]

Me: It’s nice out, I think I’m going to go on a bike ride!

Me: *walks up the stairs*

Me: Actually... I’m going to take a nap

[desipap]

This is Ahmaud Arbery.

He was gunned down by a white father and son while going for a run in a suburb in GA for apparently being a burglar.

I am sick and tired of seeing innocent black men die in America. I am sick and tired of sharing the hashtags #justicefor… I am sick and tired of expressing my frustration that this keeps happening again. Another family is broken by losing one of their own. A young man is gone for nothing. As a white woman I don’t know what it’s like and I never will. But I will stand with you, it’s times like these that it’s important to use our voices and stand up for what’s right. How many more men have to die. How many more loop holes can the American system have. How many more excuses are going to be made for racist people acting on their hate. Ahmaud Arbery was MURDERED. He was taken from this world and from his loved ones for no reason. I am disgusted that it’s been two months and there has been no action. I am disgusted that people actually set out to kill someone thinking they can get away with it and actually do. We cannot let this be just another hashtag, we cannot talk about this for a week and then forget about it. What is happening to these boys/men is one of the greatest injustices. My heart is broken for you, all that’s running through my head is why. Why is this still happening? Why is there so much hate? I don’t have the answers I probably never will. What I do have is my voice and I will use it, I will stand with you, I will support you and I will listen to African Americans about what it’s like. In order to move forward change is required and we can’t change if we do not understand what it’s like for those affected. If anyone needs or wants to talk about this please do not hesitate to message me. Discussion needs to be had in order for the world to move forward.

I am sorry Ahmaud Arbery.

You deserved better.

You deserved to be alive.

You deserved to return home to loved ones after your run.

Most of all you deserved JUSTICE.

You are gone but you’ll never be forgotten, I hope your name is more than a hashtag. I hope that one day black boys/men don’t have to leave the house in fear of not knowing if they will return or not. I hope another mother does not have wish for justice for her black son. Most of all America I hope you see this, I hope you remember this and I HOPE YOU CHANGE.

Disclaimer: I do not own rights to this photo.