#sad squid

[queerartpasta]

Here is a sad squid.

[squiddtheekidd]

Roommate rant incoming

My roommate is much more of an “emotional” person than i am and it feels like I’ll never fully be content because of it. She says that it offends her if i introduce her as my roommate and not my best friend because it hurts her feelings. She is both my roommate and one of my best friends but she’s not my only best friend so it makes more sense to introduce her as my roommate cause I only have v one of those. But it offends her so now i can’t introduce her as my roommate.

She likes to get to work early and i have dogs to take care of and we only have one bathroom so if she wakes up late i have to wait for her in order to shower or anything so then I’m running late, but she’ll flip out if she’s not at work 30 min early.

She in the middle of the bar the other night berated me in front of MY friends for my poor spacial awareness. I accidentally hit people with my elbows sometimes if I’m not really paying attention but i also apologize when i bump anyone and I’ve never hit anyone hard or intentionally. She told me in front of MY friends that it pisses her off and that i need to work on it. I’ve been trying to make myself smaller and not take up space my whole life. I just got to a point where i don’t try to make myself as small as possible and feeling better about myself and who i am as a person and I’m trying to not let this fuck up all the progress I’ve made but it’s really hard not to just regress and go back to not having friends and just sitting in my room.

Lastly it has been an issue for me my whole life that I’ll talk about liking a guy and then her (or previously it was my cousin) will meet him and she’s skinnier than me so of course they like her more and she’ll start talking to them and then i gotta back off and stop liking them cause she does and they’re talking to her and not me now.

I’m just feeling really put out and down and I’m trying not to internalize all of this.

[squiddlie]

*he brings her into a hug* -iwaizumi

*she sits in his hug closing her eyes and not saying anything because nothing needed to be said.*

[squiddlie]

It’s ok I’m not mad -iwaizumi

*she walks slowly over to him to hug him unsure if he’ll let her*

[squiddlie]

No I should be the one to apologize you did nothing wrong and I’m sorry -iwaizumi

I did I was being mean and forgetting that you’re upset too and then I pushed you away

[squiddlie]

Hey…umm how are you feeling -iwaizumi

I’m… better I think. I’m sorry…

[squiddlie]

*after a few minutes he gets up and goes to the guest bedroom* -iwaizumi

*she’s turned away from the door gently running her fingers over the onesie as he walks in*

[squiddlie]

I’m not getting mad at you! -iwaizumi

Yes you are! *she storms out of their bedroom into the guest room with her pillow. On the way the baby onesie that she’d used to spring the news falls on the floor*