Bakugou Katsuki~
Without you.
His Letter To You
Dear Y/N,
This is day 352 without you, i can’t say it’s gotten any easier Y/N, because it hasn’t. In fact it’s gotten worse, everything reminds me of you. The way the flowers bloom in spring on the small patch of grass in our garden, to the way a certain store smells.
It’s like you’re following me everywhere…even though you’re not actually here. God i wish you were following me everywhere. I never would’ve thought that I’d ever write stuff like this, let alone fall in love.
Falling in love with you was one of the best and worst things of my life. It was the best because i finally found my person who grounds me, who understands me, reassures me and loves ME for ME. The anger, the pain, the sadness, you loved every part.
You kissed every single broken part of me and put it back together perfectly with nothing but love. And yet now, here i sit in the empty, dark corner of our room, writing away on this flimsy piece of paper because i am unable to express my emotions through speaking.
I’ve wrote to you since the day it happened, hoping one day you’d come back to me and i’d be able to show you how much i loved and missed you while you were gone.
I hated falling in love with you, because being without you makes me so angry at the world for not giving us more time. We had a whole other books to complete together and yet, i was only a few chapters in yours.
I hate time. I hate death. I hate everything and everyone. I miss you. Come back to me. Why can’t you come back to me damn it.
Those big beautiful eyes i fell in love with, were supposed to be passed down to my children. But instead, I mourn them. I flick through photos to remind myself this is why im still here -surviving-even if it is barely.
I will never love anyone else the way I have loved you, my heart truly belongs to you, as well as my soul. And if there is other universes out there, I promise i’ll come searching for you in every single one, because i don’t want just a couple of chapters with you, i want a lifetime worth of books with you. Which is why i write to you, because even though we can’t be together physically, i can still give you the lifetime of books describing how much you mean to me because that’s the least that you deserve.
Everyone is distraught by your passing, some have moved on, some still mourn you. I will never get over you, i swear sometimes i see you in the corner of my eyes, or even feel you when im laying awake at night staring into the abyss pondering about what we could of had if you weren’t took away from me so soon.
I hope you’re okay wherever you are, i hope you’re proud of me, like im proud of you. Most of all, i hope you don’t forget about me.
I always thought that my biggest fear was not becoming the number one pro hero, but i soon learnt that my biggest fear was in fact losing you.
I’ll continue fighting, proving myself everyday, doing better, being kinder, softer, for you. I’ll continue making you happy, continue your legacy so the world knows just how amazing and special you are.
I look back on times where we fought or argued, and they sting me leaving me with the numbness of guilt for ever leaving, for not spending enough time with you and cherishing what we had. You were always right. I just had too much pride. And yet, you still loved me.
If i could make one wish now, it would be to never take time for granted ever again.
Anyways, you must be tired. Sleep well Princess, I love you for eternity.
Lots of Love,
Yours,
Katsuki
