#sadnap

[p1nc0n3-4u]

This c!Sapnap headcanon might be mega depressing but I’m in a sad mood and this is my coping strategy

TW: suicide, depression, self deprecation

You can’t convince me Sapnap wasn’t suicidal.

Sapnap had many people leave his life. His parent (s), Bad and Skeppy. His friends, Dream and George. And then his fiancés, Karl and Quackity. When you lose everyone in your life, and you end up alone, taking care of someone who can’t even remember your name, why wouldn’t you at least consider it.

The most solid pieces of evidence for this? Uh gee idk, how about the suicide pact he makes? I mean, Punz’s revival book is unknown to Sapnap. And technically Dream only has one life left (as it says on the good ol’ unreliable dsmp wiki), so Sapnap could have done exactly what he could have been doing, without also dying himself. If Sapnap hypothetically didn’t make the deal with XD, and killed Dream, he would have lived and done so to discover Dream could he infinitely revived 😭 the only “benefit” that comes from it is that Sapnap dies, so why would that be a thing if he didn’t want that.

The man literally has nothing to live for in his mind, no family, no friends, no fiancés, so he decides if he’s gonna go out he might as well do it with a slim chance of helping others.

He even agrees that would be totally fine with not coming back in any way, shape, or form. Dream gets a fucking ghost, he could still hurt people, but Sapnap just gets to cease to exist. Or maybe stay in purgatory/hell, who knows. It has basically just become a reason to justify his own permanent death.

And the breakup was entirely Karl and Quackity fault sorry not sorry they are mean to Sapnap

The entire point of this is to spread awareness cuz I need more sadnap fics

[rqnap]

sighs. flops. boys that dont fucking know what they do to me....

[dreamsimp]

https://youtu.be/p9SRrrXDN0Y

watch this it’s so fucking good

[rqnap]

and if i ever said another word they'd end up on the floor

[rqnap]

cry, jerk off, repeat

[rqnap]

no little austrian boy dont relapse into harmful behavior that you picked up as a coping mechanism at the behest of a cult that wanted to use your disorder as a way to control you and now fully allows anyone with a rudimentary understanding of your source to pull you blindly by the horns and do whatever they want then guilt you after for playing the game they pretend not to know they were playing

[rqnap]

george makes some good points

[rqnap]

can't tell if i'm obsessive, paranoid, or what... but he has no fucking clue the shit he does to me. to my head. i feel like i'm going crazy again and the worst part is i don't want to fight it anymore. i want to let it happen. and i want to let him consume me.