In case anyone reads my personal shit on here.
All I wanted this year was to be positive, and happy, and to grow. So far. 16 days in. I've lost one of my two jobs. I've missed 4 days of work at my second job(that I've only had for about a month). I've had a stay in the hospital. My car payment was late. I barely paid rent on time(and it went up). My phone has been off since 2 days after Christmas. And is about to go on my credit report. While I was in the hospital, I found out my Grandmother is basically on her deathbed. Has a few weeks, possibly a few months left. So now, I've got to get out to Arizona(I live in Florida). Which means more time off work. To hopefully get there in time. And see her before she passes. My depression is bringing me further down the rabbit hole. And all in all. I'm freaking out. I took 10 steps forward. And 16 days into this year I feel like I've taken 12 backwards. I'm trying to keep a brave face. To keep my positive vibes flowing, and I can't find the strength to. 16 days in. And my positivity is nowhere to be found...
So if y'all could do me a huge favor.
Send me some positive vibes. Some good juju. Or pray for me. Whatever works for you. I just, I need a boost. Please. I just need a little boost of positive energy and I should be able to pick myself back up. 💜💜💜💜💜