#sageboy

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#beyondthisworld

I’m a lightworker. I’m a transgender man. I’m mixed race. I am beautiful -- inside and out. I am barely making it. I also want nothing to do with the world’s current direction thusfar.

I’m thinking it all needs to come crashing down... to change in the blink of an eye.

My whole life I have thought that something was going to upend this world. Maybe it was a premonition. Maybe it was a implanted in my mind, somehow. But I think it has actually always come directly from the Cosmos...

People are tired. I have been tired and vexed by this place as soon as I was aware. It’s not supposed to be this way anymore.

I am better than this.

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i don’t know what love is

this isn’t clickbait. i honestly can’t remember a time where I thought, “this is love”. i think.. people feel themselves to be loving me. I think i have a different feeling of what love is... or what i think it feels like.

no.. I have never truly loved another. i want to.. i want to meet the other people like me. the other beings like me. i think then I will feel what I feel missing from others...

love from a god is different than love from a human. i have felt love from somewhere.. from the cosmos. that is why I think.. what I think love is is different. perhaps I expect mortal love to be too much.