It has been a month since Veronica's memorial, and I still feel like something is missing. Her youngest child jsut turned 4 years old, and I was honored to be invited to the party. The party mainly consisted of a few close friends and family, probably about 15 people total. I just wish she could see how much her friends loved her children, and the huge smile on his face when he opened the door for each guest. Her husband took the day off from work, and planed everything. The part was almost perfect, the only one that was missing was her, but like I said before she is always watching, and in spirit I know she was there. The cake was delicious, and Sam was so happy with his presents. He has a new obsession over Pokemon, and wants everything Pokemon. It does not matter if he already has a certain action figure, he will never say no to another one of the exact character.
After unwrapping the gifts we decided to do a TikTok, thanks to her oldest daugter Gabby. TikTok is a new social media platform kind of like Vine was. It was the first time I had every been in a TikTok, and honestly I had no idea what I was doing in the video. I felt lost, but now more than ever I believe that making memories with those who you love is very important. I know that one day when we are older we are going to look back at the video and remember the fun times we had.
On the other hand, I am still trying to piece myself together. It may look like I am fine, and doing well, but I cry every day because I still cannot wrap my head around when , why or how did I loose my bestfriend within 2 weeks. However, like Veronica always said, I just have to hold my head high and take it day by day. After all there is no time frame for healing.
