waking sang-min up by sucking him off under the covers late at night because youre ovulating and needy, and when he wakes up he makes you ride his thigh as a punishment for waking him up :3
Ha Sang-min x fem!reader
18+ content ahead! Degradation, oral (f. giving), facefucking, thigh riding, ovulation kink, punishment, messy raw sex, no protection, cold aftercare, dom!Sang-min, somnophilia(?)
You couldn’t help yourself.
It started with the ache—low in your belly, sharp and needy. The kind that made your skin feel too hot for your own body. You’d been restless for the past hour, tossing in bed, thighs clenched, nipples brushing against the cotton of your shirt just a little too sensitively. It was your fault for tracking your cycle. For knowing exactly when you were ovulating. For knowing just how badly your body wanted to be fucked and bred.
But Sang-min was asleep.
And you… you were starving for him.
You turned to face him, biting your lip. He looked so peaceful—head tipped back slightly, jaw slack, lips parted just enough to let out those soft, slow exhales. His arm was flung over his face, the covers barely clinging to his waist. His chest rose and fell steadily in the dark, broad and bare, and all you could think about was how warm he’d feel on your tongue.
One taste.
Just one…
Your thighs clenched again. The ache pulsed hot between your legs. You were already soaked through your panties.
You didn’t mean to move so quietly.
You just… slipped down.
Blankets rustled softly as you slid under them, lips parted, breath trembling. You pulled the sheets up over your head like a guilty secret and settled between his legs, heart racing. You paused, listening to the rhythm of his breathing. Still deep. Still sleeping.
You reached for the waistband of his boxers.
Slowly, carefully, you tugged them down until his cock sprang free—half-hard already, twitching against his thigh like it knew exactly what you were here for. You swallowed thickly, lips tingling.
Your mouth watered at the sight of it.
He was perfect. Heavy and flushed, thick enough to stretch your jaw and long enough to make your throat burn. You ran your fingers gently along the shaft, barely ghosting your touch over him, and he twitched.
God.
You leaned in and gave the tip one soft, slow lick. His hips shifted faintly. Still breathing deep.
You licked again—longer this time. A single wet stripe from base to head.
And then, you took him into your mouth.
The first stretch made your throat ache just a little, but fuck, the taste of him—warm, salty, that raw masculine musk—made your whole body throb. You sucked slow, tongue tracing along the underside, pressing into the thick vein you knew would make him twitch. Your hand wrapped around the base, stroking slowly in rhythm.
You bobbed your head, gradually going deeper, until your nose brushed his skin and spit began to slick your chin. The sheets muffled every filthy sound—each wet gag, each sinful slurp. Your mouth was a mess already. But he was getting harder in your throat, inch by inch, and that was all that mattered.
He shifted again, breathing heavier now.
You kept going.
One hand on his thigh, the other squeezing his base, drool slipping from the corner of your lips. You gagged softly around him and he groaned.
His hand twitched. A low, broken grunt escaped his chest.
“...the fuck…”
You froze. Eyes wide.
Then his hand fisted the sheets, yanking them back off your head in one rough motion—and there you were. Caught. On your knees, mouth full of his cock, face flushed and soaked and wrecked from the effort.
He looked down at you with hooded eyes, his voice thick with sleep and disbelief.
“You serious right now?”
You blinked up at him, sucking one last time before pulling off with a wet pop.
“I needed it,” you whispered. “Please… I couldn’t sleep.”
He stared at you for a beat, jaw clenching.
“Fucking hell,” he muttered, dragging a hand down his face. “You woke me up by sucking my dick?”
You nodded.
He laughed.
Low. Mean. Like you were insane.
“God, you’re disgusting.”
You whimpered, crawling further up between his legs, lips trailing back down his shaft. “Please, Sang-min…”
“Uh-uh.” He shoved you off, sitting up slightly with one arm behind him. “You that needy? That desperate for cock you’d wake me up just to gag on it?”
Your face burned, thighs rubbing together. “I’m ovulating…”
“No shit.” He scoffed. “Pussy probably dripping all over my sheets.”
You nodded again. Silent. Embarrassed.
That was when he grabbed you—rough, impatient—dragging you up onto his lap.
“Then get on my thigh.”
Your breath hitched. “W-What?”
“You wanna get off so bad?” he said, voice low and cruel. “Then ride it.”
He yanked you forward by the hips, forcing your soaked panties against the thick muscle of his thigh. You gasped at the friction, instinctively grinding down.
"That’s right,” he murmured, watching you. “Show me how bad you need it.”
You whined, shame burning through you—but you obeyed. You straddled his thigh fully, hands on his shoulders for balance as you started to rock your hips in slow, desperate motions.
He was warm beneath you. Solid. His thigh flexed just right with every tiny shift of muscle, grinding against your clit through your panties with a pressure that made you moan.
You looked up at him—eyes glossy, lip trembling.
And he smirked.
“Look at you. Fucking yourself on my leg like some stupid bitch in heat.”
Your cheeks flushed. You ground harder.
Each motion sent sharp sparks through your core, the pressure just right, the rough cotton dragging over your swollen clit until you were panting into his shoulder.
“You that needy, baby?” he murmured, grabbing a handful of your hair and tugging your head back. “Couldn’t wait ‘til morning?”
“I-I needed it,” you sobbed.
“Yeah, I can fuckin’ tell.” His voice was mocking now, watching you like you were nothing. “You were gonna swallow my cum in your sleep and hope I never noticed, weren’t you?”
You nodded.
He dragged your panties to the side, and your bare pussy immediately slicked his thigh, messier than before. His breath hitched when he felt it.
“Jesus. You’re soaking me.”
You moaned, grinding harder now, faster—completely lost in the friction, chasing it like a drug. Your nails dug into his shoulder, forehead pressed to his neck.
"Fucking mess,” he muttered, grabbing your hips to keep you still—then forcing you to rock slower. “Nah, not like that. You do it my way.”
You whimpered at the restraint, but obeyed, hips jerking awkwardly in smaller, tighter circles.
His hand slid up your back, then gripped the back of your neck hard enough to hold you in place. “Moan for me.”
You did. Loud and filthy. You didn’t care.
The slick sounds of your pussy dragging over his thigh filled the room, your inner thighs shining with arousal.
“You’re gonna cum just from this?” he said darkly. “Just from humping me like a fuckin’ mutt?”
“Yes—fuck, yes—”
“Then cum.”
That was it.
You fell apart with a loud, broken cry, grinding frantically as your orgasm ripped through you. Your pussy spasmed against his leg, slick gushing as you rode it out, thighs trembling, body shaking.
You kept humping even as you sobbed from the intensity.
When it was over, your body collapsed against his, breathless and ruined.
And he didn’t hold you.
He shoved you back, wiping your slick off his leg with a disgusted scoff.
“Fucking unbelievable,” he muttered, reaching for a tissue and tossing it at you. “Clean up your mess.”
You blinked at him, still dazed.
“I—”
“Save it,” he snapped. “I’m going back to sleep. You do this again and I’ll leave you on edge for a week.”
You flinched.
He turned away from you, rolling over like nothing happened.
No kiss. No praise. No comfort.
Just you, aching and raw and used, staring at the wet stain on his thigh and the cum-slicked sheets beneath you.
You swallowed hard and reached for the tissue, throat tight.
can you make a fic abt ha sangmin from a killers paradox there like lil to none fics abt him
tw stalking
note sorry this is so short / ive never actually watched a killer paradox so i hope i have able to write him correctly 🙂↕️
the second he saw you he knew he had to have you. in every sense of the word. needed to smell you when you woke up, needed to feel your warmth when he fell asleep, needed to see your face when... well. you were a new hire at the coffee shop he frequented. just a random picked off the street because you knew how to follow instructions. a foreigner here on a school visa just trying to make ends meet. a person just going through the motions.
"Small, hot, 2 creams."
"Alright, anything else for you today?"
"That's all."
this went on for week, one small coffee always made the same way. your hands working to make it perfect, just for him. each time you hand it over his fingers graze yours, and each time his heart thumps annoyingly in his chest. of course you have no idea, your smile never faltering and your voice syrupy sweet. he watches you after work, that stupid vape always in your hand as you walk to your car. his shirt pressed and his shoes perfectly polished as he sinks lower into his seat. the view of you slowly becoming less and less enough.
"Hey, you're that barista, right? Beans Beans?"
"Yeah. Small, hot, 2 creams, right?"
he was lucky, to have found you. to see you during a daily run through the jung district. sunlight harsh on your eyes as you cover your forehead. you give him that customer service smile, your face softer as it becomes genuine. shifting on your feet, he thinks you'll run off right then and there. leave him behind as you continue your routine. instead your feet stay planted despite the small movements and sways as you talk.
"You always look so fancy. Where do you work?"
he smiles at you, your korean was tolerable. some words come out wrong or confusing, but he simply smiles and continues.
"Some car company, it's pretty boring."
"I'd still like to know."
"Hyundai Motor. It's monotonous. Same shit, different day."
"Oh, like those suvs? I used to have one before I moved here. It was nice, leather seats that you could warm up. I miss it."
"Exactly. Have you been able to get another one?"
"I think it's a Ford, i don't know. It's my roommates car. I just borrow it for work and school."
"What do you go to school for?"
"I'm here to be an english school teacher, I'm hoping to move here permanently in a few years."
"After your Korean gets better?"
"Is it really that bad?"
"It can always be better. You seem to understand it fine, it's just your phonics are off."
"I could always use a teacher, mine are all busy half the time." he doesn't respond, just stares at you for a few beats.
"Sorry, that was way too forward of me."
"Not at all," he gives you a small smile. "I could teach you."
"Really? That's awesome! Here."
you fish your phone out of your pocket and click it open. unlocking it you pull up your contacts and hand the phone over to him.
"Put your number in."
he take it, his fingers brushing against yours. so pretty. typing in his number he sends himself a message before handing it back. you smile and slide your phone back into your pocket. rubbing your hands together you give a quick clap.
"Thank you for the help, well pre thank you. I have to go, but I appreciate you a lot."
you give him one last smile before running off again. he follows you with his eyes before you disappear out of view. he continues walking without a destination in mind.
The ring looks heavier under fluorescent light. It never does well with honesty. At the boutique it sparkled, all white-glove and champagne. In Sang-min’s condo kitchen it glares at you from your hand like a dare.
“Fits,” Sang-min says, pleased with himself. He takes your fingers, rotates them to admire his purchase. His smile’s engineered, the kind that photographs well. You know the exact moment he’ll look up to kiss your temple because he follows the script of being a good man right until the scene ends.
“I’m gonna open a bottle,” he adds. “We should celebrate properly.”
He slips away to the bar cart. You exhale and let the ring settle. It leaves a pale indentation when you spin it, a circle where your skin’s already learned a new rule.
The front door clicks. A scrape of sneakers. A muttered curse that has zero interest in apologizing. You don’t need to turn to know who it is.
Nam-gyu kicks the door shut with his heel and shoulders in a grocery bag like he lost a bet with a convenience store. Hair in his eyes. Hoodie unzipped over a faded band tee. Chain wallet. Stupidly pretty mouth set in a line that says he never learned how to arrive anywhere on time or clean.
He stops when he sees the ring. His gaze flickers to your face, down to your hand, back up. No congratulations. He chews a piece of nicotine gum like life’s a joke he refuses to get.
“Look what your brother did,” you say, light, because this is how families get along.
Sang-min calls from the bar, bright as glass. “Perfect, you’re here. We’ll toast together.”
Nam-gyu drops the bag on the counter. Instant noodles, energy drinks, a pack of batteries that’ll never find a remote. He takes a can, cracks it, and leans his hip against the counter like he lives in every doorway. His eyes return to the ring like he’s memorizing an enemy.
“Nice rock,” he says finally. “Heavy enough to drown with.”
“Be polite,” Sang-min says, not looking. The wire cage on the champagne bottle sings as he works it loose. “It suits her.”
Nam-gyu doesn’t remove his stare. His mouth tilts. “It suits you.”
Sang-min brings flutes. You clink. You drink. He talks about guest lists and tasting menus and the kind of photographer who only shoots in natural light. You nod and practice being the future. Nam-gyu doesn’t drink champagne. He watches you over the rim of his energy drink and looks like he wants to put teeth into something he’s not allowed to bite.
When the toasting’s over, Sang-min’s all movement. He answers a call. He accepts congratulations from a man who says brother too many times for the number of favors he wants. He walks into his office to pull a file. The door closes with expensive quiet.
You rinse the flutes. The ring flashes from the soap suds. The air hums with the sound of an apartment that knows which brother owns it.
“Does it pinch?” Nam-gyu asks.
“Sometimes.”
“Take it off.”
You look at him. He leans forward and taps the counter with one finger, like he’s testing the grain. “So you remember how your hand feels when it isn’t a promise.”
You ignore the shiver. You turn back to the sink. The next breath you take is his. He’s too close. The notch of his hip presses the cabinet door. His hoodie smells like smoke he promised someone he quit and the soft chemical citrus of gas station soap. He’s the kind of boy who lived in detention and never learned his lesson. He’s also your fiancé’s brother.
“Move,” you say.
He doesn’t. He reaches past you to shut the faucet. The kitchen goes quiet.
“I’m serious,” you warn.
“So am I.” His eyes drop to your mouth. “Tell me to back up.”
“Back up.”
He does. One step. Enough space to breathe, not enough to forget. His gaze cuts to the hall where Sang-min’s office door stays shut. He drags his tongue over his canine like he plans crimes for the taste.
“You look better without gifts,” he says. “You always did.”
“Don’t do this.”
“Do what?” He shrugs. “Look at you?”
You dry your hands. Your pulse’s loud because he’s replacing oxygen in the room with dare. You want to tell him he’s not a real threat. You want to tell him you aren’t either. You also want to admit that when he walks into a room the floor tilts toward him like gravity has opinions.
“Why do you hate him,” you ask, too soft.
“I don’t,” Nam-gyu says. “I hate the part of him that thinks he gets to have you by putting his name on your finger.”
“That’s how engagement works.”
“That’s how ownership works.”
You swallow. “You think you’re better.”
“I think I’m worse.” His smile’s brief and ugly and true. “And I think you know exactly how much worse.”
The office door opens. You step back like you were about to touch fire. Nam-gyu makes a study of his can. Sang-min reenters composed as ever, an answer on his phone, a hand on your back, both effortless. He doesn’t notice the way the air feels used.
You eat with both brothers. You talk about safe topics. Later, when Sang-min goes for a late workout and tells you to rest, Nam-gyu puts on a movie and pretends he chose it for himself. You don’t sit near him. He doesn’t try to shorten the distance. He doesn’t need to. He talks during the credits like he’s testing what you’ll let him say.
“You think he writes speeches for your vows already?” he asks.
“Probably.”
“You think he leaves room for you to have a voice?”
“I have one.”
“I noticed.” He glances at your mouth.
You stand. You should go to bed. You should put space between this couch and the stupid quickness of your heart. In the hallway you feel him behind you, not touching, close enough to add heat. You stop at the bathroom. He stops too, a shadow on the wall.
“You shouldn’t look at me like that,” you tell the tile.
“I’m not,” he says. “I’m looking at a problem.”
“What problem?”
“The kind where I buy new sheets because I’m gonna ruin the ones you picked out.”
You turn. His hands are in his pockets again. He’s almost smiling, which is worse than an apology. Your mouth opens, then shuts, because the word no is right there and also the world where you speak it keeps replaying on mute.
“Say it,” he says quietly. “And I’ll stop.”
“Say what?”
“That you don’t want me.” He leans his shoulder against the doorframe like he’s prepared to be arrested in place. “Say it and I’ll never try again.”
The bathroom fan clicks on somewhere inside the wall. The sound gives you something to hold. You stare at him like you’re trying to turn him into a stranger. He waits, and the waiting’s what makes your throat hurt.
When you don’t answer, he exhales. He nods like he’s been defeated by a rule he always ignored.
“Right,” he says, soft. “Thought so.”
He pushes off the frame and walks away. You slide into the bathroom and lock the door and lean your head to the mirror. Your reflection looks like someone rehearsing a lie.
Sang-min sleeps like a man who’s good at power. He tucks you into his chest and you understand why people choose their lives. Morning brings coffee, a calendar, an email that says the venue’s thrilled to host. He kisses your forehead like he’s signing for a package and heads to his car.
The door clicks behind Sang-min and it’s like someone let the weather in. You stand in the kitchen with your hands wrapped around the mug he made for you, reading the email he flagged as important, venue confirmations, dietary restrictions, floral arrangements. The kind of logistics that pass for intimacy in a life so perfectly structured it doesn’t even creak.
You stare at the foam on your coffee until it disappears.
When you finally look up, Nam-gyu is there. Still barefoot. Hoodie half off one shoulder, jaw stubbled, eyes red like he only sleeps when the city does. He leans in the doorway with his arms crossed, blocking the hall. Maybe he’s been there since Sang-min left. Maybe he just materializes when you’re alone.
He doesn’t say good morning. He doesn’t say anything at all until you make him.
“You know it’s creepy to stand there and watch people,” you say, flat.
He shrugs. “You didn’t lock the door.”
“Why would I?”
He smirks, like he’s found the loose thread in your reasoning. “Maybe you wanted me to come in.”
You roll your eyes, but it’s less effective than you hope. He steps closer. He always does. There’s something magnetic about his proximity, the way the air between you two gets thick, like bad weather rolling in.
He glances at your hand. “You still wearing it?”
“It’s an engagement ring, not a tracking device.”
He makes a low, skeptical noise. “You sure? Feels like you check for it every five seconds. Making sure you’re still claimed.”
You set the mug down, steadier than you feel. “You think I care what you think?”
“No,” he says, stepping in close enough that you have to tilt your chin up. “I think you care what you feel.”
His hand lifts. He doesn’t touch you, not quite, his fingers hover over yours, a dare you’re supposed to refuse. But you don’t move, and the silence hums, high-tension wire between you.
“Take it off,” he says again, soft. Not an order, but a promise that something ends, or begins, if you do.
You don’t. Not yet. Maybe not ever. But you don’t back away either.
“Don’t you get tired?” you ask. “Of trying to fuck up everything Sang-min has?”
He grins, and it’s ugly with truth. “Only when it’s easy.”
You want to be angry. You want to tell him he’s pathetic, that he’ll never measure up, that you’re not some prize in a blood feud. But the words dissolve, bitter at the root.
Instead, you ask, “Why me?”
His expression changes, for a second, vulnerable enough that you almost look away. “Because you look at him like you’re trying to convince yourself. And you look at me like you’ve already decided.”
You swallow. “You don’t know me.”
He shakes his head, too slow. “I do. Better than he ever will. He wants to put you in a frame. I want to ruin the painting.”
You’re not sure if it’s a threat or a plea. Maybe both.
The fridge kicks on. The world keeps moving. He’s still watching you like he’s starving.
“You want to hurt him?” you ask.
He shakes his head, lips twisted. “Nah. I want to hurt you a little, and see if you come back for more.”
You breathe out. It doesn’t sound like a laugh. “You’re sick.”
He leans in, so close you can taste the sleep and cigarettes on his breath. “Takes one to know one, princess.”
Before you can answer, his hand brushes your waist, too light to be accidental, too deliberate to be excused. His thumb settles on the soft inside of your elbow, the gentlest threat.
“Let me ruin something,” he says. “Just a little. You can blame it on me.”
You want to say no.
You want to say yes.
The ring on your finger weighs a thousand pounds.
He steps back, and for once, you’re the one unsteady.
You stare down at the ring, thumb running over the diamond like it’s some strange artifact. It feels too cold for morning, too heavy for one person’s promise. When you slide it off, your pulse flickers up, hot and guilty. The skin beneath it’s a little paler. You tell yourself it’s just circulation, not fate.
You close your fist around the ring. Nam-gyu’s halfway to the door, backpack slung, already halfway out of your life, or so he wants you to think.
“Wait,” you call, and your voice breaks in the middle, just a tiny crack.
He pauses, glances over his shoulder, suspicion and hope tangled together. You cross the kitchen to him, ring hidden in your palm. It feels like something illegal, what you’re about to do. Maybe it is.
You press the ring into his hand, hard enough that your fingers shake. “Don’t do anything stupid with it.”
He stares at your hand, then at your face. For a moment, he doesn’t move. Just looks at you like he’s searching for a trick in the light, some secret message under your skin.
“I’m serious,” you say, quieter. “Don’t pawn it. Don’t lose it. Don’t.. don’t make it worse.”
His fingers close over the ring, so tight his knuckles go white. “You trust me?”
“No,” you say. “But I want to.”
He laughs, quiet, mean, honest. “You shouldn’t.”
You step back. The absence of the ring feels raw, like a bandage ripped too fast.
He tucks it into his pocket, never breaking eye contact. For once he doesn’t try to touch you. He just holds your gaze, and you get the sense that if you told him to walk into traffic he’d do it, just to prove a point you’d never forgive.
“I won’t do anything stupid,” he says finally. “Not with this.”
He lets the implication hang, about the ring, about you, about all the lines he’s willing to cross if you give him even an inch.
“Nam-gyu..” you start.
He shakes his head, abrupt, jaw clenching like he’s swallowing a thousand confessions. “I get it,” he says. “You want to remember what your hand feels like. Go look in the mirror. See what your eyes look like too.”
He’s out the door before you can answer. The lock clicks soft behind him.
You stand in the quiet, staring at your empty finger, heartbeat too loud in your own ears.
It’s another hour before you move. When you do, your hand keeps returning to the place the ring used to live, as if muscle memory could re-write the last ten minutes.
The texts start coming in, Sang-min, with some wedding update, his mom, the florist, a friend asking for brunch. You answer none of them. You’re too busy trying to remember what it feels like to not belong to anybody.
That afternoon Nam-gyu texts you from the elevator lobby: come out here a sec.
You step into the hall. The light is clinical, humming, the kind that makes everything look more true than it feels. He’s slouched by the stairwell door, hands in his pockets, chewing gum like patience is a language he refuses to learn.
He doesn’t waste time. “There was an accident.”
Your stomach drops. “What kind of accident?”
His eyes flick to your bare hand, then back to your face. “I might’ve lost it.”
Everything inside you goes sharp. “Lost what?”
“The ring.”
Heat hits your ears so fast you feel dizzy. “What the fuck, Nam-gyu.”
He doesn’t flinch. “It’s not like it screamed when it fell.”
You take a step in. “Where?”
He lifts a shoulder. “I don’t know. Maybe the stairwell. Maybe the parking garage. Maybe the drain by the mailboxes. It rolled.”
“You’re an idiot.”
“Probably.” He drags his tongue across a canine, slow and smug. “Why do you care?”
You laugh once, too loud, not funny at all. “Because I gave it to you, that’s why.”
“You said not to do anything stupid with it.” He tilts his head. “This is more like reckless. Different category.”
You close the distance until his back kisses the metal push bar. The air smells like dust and lemon cleaner and him. “You think this is a joke.”
“I think you’re shaking.” He looks almost pleased. “Finally. Something honest.”
You shove a hand against his chest. “Tell me where it is.”
He studies your mouth. “Say please.”
“Fuck you. Tell me.”
He sighs like he’s doing you a favor, then hooks a finger in the chain at his hip. One tug and the steel links rasp, a little flash of white fire slipping from under his hoodie. The ring swings into view, threaded through a split keyring on his wallet chain. It spins and throws small stars on the wall.
Your breath stutters. Rage floods in behind relief. “You asshole.”
His smile is quiet and cruel. “I said might’ve lost it.”
You reach for it. He pulls the chain back, just out of reach, playful like a cat with a stolen ribbon. “Careful. You’ll have to explain why it’s not on your hand.”
“Give it to me.”
“Ask nicer.”
“Give it to me, now.”
He shifts, the chain chiming, the ring flashing between you like a dare. “Or what. You’ll tell him you’re out here arguing with me about it. You’ll say you trusted the loser brother with the diamond and he decided to keep it like a trophy.”
Your throat tightens. “You’re disgusting.”
“Say you want it back,” he says, soft. “Or say you want me to keep it.”
You hate him for the way your pulse spikes. You hate the truth in his eyes. You hate that the ring looks more alive on his chain than it ever did on your hand.
“Give. It. To. Me.”
He leans in a fraction, voice a scrape. “That ring means you belong to him. On me it means you’re thinking about belonging to me.”
You lunge. Your fingers brush the warm metal. He lets you have it for a breath, then closes his hand over yours and the ring both. Skin to skin. Heat to heat. His grip is firm, not cruel, and the beat in your wrist jumps against his palm.
“Say it,” he whispers. “Which one.”
The front door opens down the hall. Expensive quiet, then the soft thud of leather shoes. A key catches the deadbolt, a familiar rhythm. Sang-min’s voice rides in calm and bright.
“Darling?”
You tear your hand back. The ring slips off the chain into Nam-gyu’s palm. He doesn’t move. His eyes stay on you, unreadable.
Footsteps approach. The elevator pings. A bag rustles. Sang-min rounds the corner with a smile already prepared and stops dead at the sight of the two of you by the stairwell, too close, the air still trembling from whatever you almost did.
“What are you two arguing about?” he asks, cheerful on the surface, something colder underneath.
You swallow. Your finger feels naked. Nam-gyu’s hand is still closed. The ring is somewhere inside his fist.
“Nothing,” you say.
Nam-gyu smiles without showing teeth. “Family stuff.” He pats his pocket like he was never holding anything at all. “You know how it is.”
The smile Sang-min brought around the corner lands, then wobbles.
“Hey, where’s your ring?”
Your mouth moves before your brain. “Oh! Um. It’s… it’s upstairs. I didn’t want to lose it when I made dinner.”
Silence stretches. The kind that measures lies.
Beside you, Nam-gyu’s mouth twitches. He’s trying not to laugh. You jab your elbow into his ribs, hard.
He folds with a dramatic little oww, palm over his side. “Sang-min, your girlfriend is mean.”
“Fiancée,” Sang-min corrects, automatic.
“Right,” Nam-gyu says. “Fiancée.”
Sang-min’s eyes are on you again, assessing, warm on the surface, cooler beneath. “Can you grab it? I want to send my mom a photo. She keeps asking.”
“Yeah. Of course.” You pivot toward the stairs. “Two minutes.”
You feel Nam-gyu fall into step behind you like a bad habit. You ignore him until the bedroom door clicks shut and he’s there, leaning on the jamb, hands in his pockets like he belongs in all your thresholds.
“Get out,” you whisper.
He doesn’t. He nudges the door with his heel so it fits the frame, then crosses to you slow. “Say please.”
“Please get out.”
He smiles with his eyes, not his mouth, and hooks a finger at his hip. The chain rasps. The ring glints up from its place on his keyring, bright and shameless. He holds it up between you, and the little sun it throws onto your collarbone makes your skin go tight.
“You said you might’ve lost it.”
“I said I might’ve.” He lets it swing. “I didn’t.”
You reach. He lets you touch it for a heartbeat, warm from his body, then closes his hand around both metal and your fingers. His skin is hot. Your pulse is ridiculous.
“Give me the ring.”
“Nicer.”
You swallow. “Please.”
For a second he looks almost sorry. Then he steps closer and slides the ring off the chain. He doesn’t hand it over. He takes your left hand and, with slow, careful pressure that feels like the worst kind of promise, pushes the band back onto your finger. The metal settles. Your breath doesn’t.
He watches your face the whole time. “There,” he says. “Back where it belongs.”
You tug your hand away like it burns. “Don’t do that again.”
“Which part?”
“All of it.”
He tips his head, amused. “Then stop asking me to.”
You shoulder past him, palm flat over the ring like you can hide it from the world. He lets you pass, then says, too low to carry, “Tell him you left it by the sink.”
You don’t answer. You go downstairs with a steady face you don’t feel.
Sang-min is setting out plates on the island, linen napkins folded in those tidy squares he learned from a hotel. He looks up the second he hears you. Relief loosens his mouth when he sees the diamond flashing where it should.
“There she is,” he says, pleased. He reaches for your hand and brings it to his lips, kissing the ring like he’s signing for a delivery. “Perfect.”
Behind him, Nam-gyu leans on the far counter, cracking open a can. He’s quiet. He’s also grinning into the tab like he won something he’s not supposed to keep.
“Where was it?” Sang-min asks, phone already out, camera already opening.
“By the sink,” you say, light. “Didn’t want to get oil on it.”
“Good thinking.” He frames your hand against the marble, the stone catching every cold light in the room. “Mom will love this.”
You hold your breath for the shutter. The sound is crisp and harmless. It still makes your stomach dip.
“Group shot after dinner,” Sang-min says, happy. “The three of us.”
“Cute,” Nam-gyu says, deadpan. “Family values.”
You pull your hand back and reach for the cutting board. The knife feels good in your grip. Simple. Honest. You slice through a tomato and try not to hear the quiet laugh across the room.
Sang-min scrolls, choosing the photo he’ll send. “You look beautiful,” he says without looking up. “Thank you for remembering the ring.”
“Always,” you say.
Across the island, Nam-gyu taps his chain once, like a secret only you can hear. The diamond on your finger throws its little star onto the blade, and for a second the light looks like a lie learning your name.
Dinner smells like garlic and butter and the kind of comfort you can fake with heat. You plate the pasta. Sang-min pours wine. Nam-gyu sinks into a chair like he’s settling into a dare.
He won’t stop staring.
“Wow, hyung,” he says around his first bite, eyes on you, not the food. “Your girl made a great meal. She’s a keeper, huh?”
Sang-min grins, pleased. “She is.”
“Lucky,” Nam-gyu says, twirling noodles he doesn’t look at. “Some guys don’t know how to keep what they have.”
Your fork pauses. You drink water you don’t need.
Sang-min keeps talking about guest lists and place cards and a band that only plays vinyl. He’s happy in the details. Nam-gyu is happy in the quiet between them. He keeps finding your gaze and holding it until your chest goes tight.
“Seriously,” he adds, light. “Best pasta I’ve had in months. If she cooks like this every night, marriage is gonna be easy.”
You want to stab him in the knee. You smile instead. “Eat.”
He does, but slow, like every bite is a performance. He licks sauce off his thumb and watches you watch him do it. Your face heats. You cut another piece of bread you don’t plan to eat.
Sang-min’s phone buzzes. He checks the screen and stands, apologetic. “Two seconds. Venue manager. I’ll take it by the window.”
He steps into the living room. His voice drops to polite business. The glass reflection holds a framed version of him, perfect posture, perfect calm.
The second he’s out of earshot you put your fork down. “Cut it out.”
Nam-gyu blinks, all innocence. “Cut what out.”
“This.” You wave a hand at the table, your chest, his mouth. “You. Staring. Needling. Saying things like I’m not sitting two feet away.”
“I’m not doing anything.” He leans back, spreading out like a problem. “Just complimenting the lovely bride.”
Your jaw clenches. “Stop.”
He tilts his head. “Unless you don’t want to marry him after all.”
His grin is dumb on purpose. It’s the same one he uses to get thrown out of bars and forgiven by girls who should know better. Your vision sparks a little at the edges.
“Don’t,” you say.
“Don’t what?” He taps the base of his wineglass, watching the bowl ring. “Say what you’re scared to say?”
“I’m not scared.”
“Then prove it.” His gaze drops to your left hand. “Keep the ring on and stop looking at me like you want to take it off again.”
Your chair scrapes an inch. You don’t realize you’ve moved until the table shivers. “You think this is funny.”
He shakes his head. “Not funny. True.”
“God, you’re unbearable.”
He smiles with his eyes. “You like me unbearable.”
“Not like this.”
“Then tell me how.” He leans in an inch, elbows on the table, voice low. “Tell me what you want and I’ll shut up.”
“I want you to stop pushing.”
His mouth softens. For a heartbeat you see the version of him that doesn’t pick fights with his brother and doesn’t pick at the seams of your life just to see what rips. Then it’s gone.
“Okay.” He sits back. “I’ll be good.”
You pick up your fork so you don’t pick up the knife. The tines shake. You twirl pasta you won’t taste.
He watches your hand. “You put it back on.”
“You told me to say it was by the sink.”
“Yeah.” His gaze drags up your arm, slow. “Looked better on my chain.”
Your lungs forget how to work for a second. “You’re trying to ruin this.”
“Maybe.” He nudges his plate. “Maybe I’m trying to see if it can be ruined.”
“Why?”
“Because if it breaks this easy,” he says, quiet, “it was never the right fit.”
You look toward the window. Sang-min smiles into his call, nodding. He looks like stability warmed to body temperature. When you look back, Nam-gyu is still there, hands open on the table, palms up like he’s showing he’s unarmed. It’s a lie you can touch.
“You think you know me,” you say.
“I do.” His voice is simple. “You’re a good liar until you’re not. You like to be chosen but you hate being owned. You’re wearing his ring and thinking about how it felt not to.”
You hate that you want to argue and can’t find the ground to stand on.
For a moment the only sound is the distant, careful cadence of Sang-min’s voice, always calm, always polite, always a man who could smooth any wrinkle with a well-placed word. You wonder if he’d even recognize the disaster building under his own roof.
Nam-gyu is still staring, elbows spread, knuckles pressed white against the linen. He’s too loose, too confident, like he’s sure gravity itself will shift if he leans far enough.
He drops his voice, so soft it barely scrapes across the table. “You ever think maybe you put the ring on just to see if you could still take it off?”
Your fingers tighten on your fork. “I said stop.”
He shrugs. “I already did. This is just conversation, right?”
You glare at him, but it doesn’t land. He smiles, all teeth, and you swear he’s waiting for you to lunge first.
The tension snaps and sizzles in the air. The kitchen, the house, your whole life, every corner feels too small for the three of you, too cramped for all the secrets you’re pretending aren’t secrets.
The window glass reflects Sang-min’s silhouette, talking, laughing, alive in a world that never asks hard questions. Your world, the one that’s supposed to feel safe, feels like a trick of the light.
Nam-gyu sets his fork down, slow, a deliberate sound. “You’re shaking.”
You blink, look down. He’s right. Your hands are trembling, your chest tight with something that feels dangerously close to wanting.
He leans forward, conspiratorial. “You know what I think? I think you’re scared you’re going to choose wrong. And I think you want someone to make the choice for you.”
“Don’t flatter yourself,” you whisper.
His mouth tilts. “Not flattery if it’s true.”
You close your eyes, just for a second, just long enough to wish for stillness.
You open them. He’s still there.
“You want to know what I want?” you breathe, anger and desperation tangled up tight. “I want you to leave me alone.”
He lets the words hang, then nods, a razor smile curling at the edge of his mouth. “For now.”
The front door clicks. Sang-min’s call ends; his voice draws closer, bright and blithe, completely unaware.
You straighten your shoulders, slide your ring finger under the table, hide the shaking. Nam-gyu sits back, suddenly the perfect picture of a bored brother, no crime, no evidence.
Sang-min enters, eyes landing on you with that unbothered warmth that’s supposed to make you feel at home. “Sorry about that. They’re hopeless without me.” He looks between the two of you, searching for tension, finding only the shape of it in your silence.
“Everything okay?” he asks, and his voice is so gentle you almost want to break down and confess.
“Fine,” you manage, and the word tastes like blood.
Nam-gyu lifts his glass, toasts you in mock salute. “To the happy couple.”
Sang-min laughs, relief flooding his features. “To us.”
You raise your glass, the string in your chest stretched to breaking, and you drink. The wine tastes like nothing.
Nam-gyu’s gaze burns a hole through you the whole time.
—
It’s late. The condo is quiet in that insulated, expensive way, every light but one switched off. You pace your room like a trapped thing. The ceiling is too low, the air too thin, your thoughts too loud to let you sleep. You keep glancing at the ring, twisting it, taking it off, putting it back on. Your chest hurts. You need air, or maybe you need danger, which feels the same lately.
Before you even decide, you’re at his door. It’s cracked, just enough to catch the blue glow of a phone screen. You push it open with your knuckles.
Nam-gyu’s sprawled across his unmade bed, phone in one hand, the other arm thrown over his head. He doesn’t look surprised to see you.
He sits up slow, propping himself on his elbows, eyes dark and lazy. “Oh, hello princess. What can I do for you?”
Your mouth feels dry. You hover in the doorway, trying to look braver than you feel.
He grins, a flash of teeth in the half-light. “Come here. Sit.”
You do, like gravity’s made the decision for you. You perch on the edge of his bed, knees tight, hands twisted in your lap.
He raises a brow. “All the way over there? You scared?”
You force out a shaky laugh. “Of what?”
He shrugs, phone tossed aside now, all attention zeroed in on you. “Me. Yourself. Take your pick.”
You roll your eyes, but it doesn’t carry. He pats the mattress beside him, slow and easy. “Come on. I don’t bite.” His smile sharpens. “Unless you want me to.”
You shoot him a look, but you move. Scoot back, slow, until you’re close enough to share the same patch of warm, rumpled sheets. He’s close enough now that you could count the moles on his throat if you weren’t so busy holding your breath.
He watches your face for a beat, something almost kind flickering in his eyes. “See? That’s better.”
He smells like detergent and cheap body spray and a little bit of smoke, like all his bad habits are stitched into his skin. The tension between you isn’t just a string anymore, it’s a noose, ready to snap and leave you both breathless.
Your knees brush. You can feel the heat of him along your arm. He doesn’t reach for you, not yet, just studies you in that way he does, like he’s waiting for you to blink first.
“You ever gonna tell me why you’re here?” he asks, soft.
You open your mouth, but nothing comes out. Every reason sounds stupid, dangerous, or both. You glance at his hands, long fingers, a faint scar on the knuckle, the memory of your ring pressed into his palm. You wonder if he can feel the ghost of it, too.
He tilts his head, all mock patience. “You want something, princess. Just say it.”
You stare at the wall. “I couldn’t sleep.”
He hums, low in his chest. “Me neither.”
There’s a pause. Not awkward, not safe. Just loaded.
He shifts closer, voice a whisper. “So what do you want?”
You swallow. You don’t know if it’s a confession or a dare. Your pulse is thunder in your ears.
His hand finds your knee, light at first, then a little firmer, as if he’s grounding you and himself at the same time. “I’m right here. Just ask.”
The string holding it all together is thinner than ever. You think if you breathe wrong, it might finally break.
The first kiss is chaos, all teeth and breathless want, but it’s the second that seals it. You’re in his lap before you even realize, thighs spread over denim, heart hammering so hard it hurts. Nam-gyu’s hands are everywhere, first at your hips, then greedy on your ass, pulling you in like he’s waited a lifetime.
Your night shirt is thin, barely a barrier. You’re already trembling, nerves wired from the guilt and the hunger. He palms your bare thigh, skin to skin, tracing up to where the fabric clings uselessly to your hips. You feel the rough scrape of his calluses, the burn of his breath against your jaw.
“You know how fucked up this is?” he murmurs, voice shredded, lips skimming your throat. “God, you’re his..”
“Not right now,” you whisper, clutching fistfuls of his hair, grinding down on his lap. “Just..don’t talk about him.”
He laughs, low, dark, hungry. “Yeah? You want to pretend I’m the only one who’s ever touched you?”
You nod, shameless. You want to forget everything but this. “Please.”
He mouths at your collarbone, teeth scraping, tongue soothing the sting. One hand slips up, pushing your shirt higher, fingers skating beneath the hem. He finds the edge of your thong, so small, so useless, and his thumb hooks it, yanking until the elastic snaps with a wicked little pop.
You gasp, heat sparking up your spine. He rips it away, tossing the ruined lace somewhere you’ll never find. “That’s better,” he says, voice full of sin. “I want nothing between us. Not even this.”
He tugs your shirt higher, exposing more skin, staring at you like he can’t believe you’re real. You’re panting, your thighs shaking around him, the cool air on your ass sending a thrill through you that feels half terror, half joy.
His hand drags up your spine, anchoring you, the other splayed over your thigh as he pulls you flush against him. The hardness in his jeans presses right against you, thick, hot, desperate. You rut against him, all shame burned away by the kind of need that can’t survive daylight.
He shudders, cursing under his breath. “You’re fucking wet already. Did you come here wanting this?”
You can’t answer. You’re already grinding, chasing the friction, your head tipped back, eyes squeezing shut. He pushes your shirt up, exposes your breasts to the low light, palms them roughly, mouth latching on like he’s starving for the taste of your skin.
“Shit..” you gasp, arching into him.
His tongue is filthy, swirling around your nipple, teeth nipping. His hand dips between your legs, fingers sliding through slick, finding you bare and wanting. He circles your clit, then sinks two fingers inside, curling them until you choke on a moan.
He smirks up at you, wild and unrepentant. “You’re so fucking tight,” he whispers, fucking you slow and deep, his thumb teasing circles that make you whimper. “Bet you’ve never let him see you like this. Bet you never let him hear you beg.”
You shake your head, words dissolving into sound. Your nails dig into his shoulders, holding on for dear life as he ruins you with his hands, his mouth, the filthy things he says just for you.
He pulls his fingers free, sticky and shining, and sucks them clean with obscene pleasure. “Taste yourself,” he says, pressing his slick fingers to your lips. You open for him, tongue wrapping around his knuckles, tasting the salt and sweetness of your own undoing.
He growls, his cock straining in his jeans. “Gonna fuck you so hard you forget you were ever his,” he mutters, fumbling his fly open, shoving his pants down just enough to free himself.
You reach for him, wrapping your hand around his cock, thick and hot and already leaking for you. He groans, hips jerking, then grabs you by the waist and lines you up, the head sliding through your wetness, catching at your entrance.
“Last chance,” he pants, forehead pressed to yours, eyes searching for any scrap of regret. “Say no and I’ll stop.”
You look him dead in the eyes, all trembling bravado and broken vows. “Don’t stop. Please..fuck me. Now.”
He surges up, pushing inside in one desperate, hungry thrust. You cry out, head falling to his shoulder, the stretch and the heat blurring every thought but more.
He sets a brutal rhythm, hands bruising on your hips, bouncing you in his lap, fucking up into you so deep you see stars. The bed creaks, the air thick with sweat and the sounds you can’t swallow. You bury your face in his neck, biting down to keep from screaming.
“God, you’re perfect,” he grits out, snapping his hips harder, angrier, like every thrust is a punishment for everything he’ll never have. “You feel so fucking good, princess..so fucking good.”
You ride him, desperate, chasing the edge. He brings his thumb down to your clit, rough and practiced, and the pleasure spikes white-hot behind your eyes.
You’re teetering on the edge, breath ragged, hands scrabbling for purchase on his shoulders as he thrusts up into you, relentless, rough, greedy. Sweat beads at your temples. You feel the slick slide of his skin, the raw push of his cock, the sharp sting of teeth at your throat.
He’s close, and so are you, tighter, hotter, lost to the filthy rhythm you swore you’d never want. The only sound is your breath, the slap of skin, the whisper of sheets as you lose yourself in the wrongest, most addictive kind of pleasure.
All of a sudden, you hear footsteps in the hall.
A knock. Your heart nearly explodes from your chest.
“Hyung?” Sang-min’s voice, too close, muffled by the door. “Do you have a girl in there?”
Nam-gyu reacts faster than you. His hand snaps up, palm clamping over your mouth, his other arm banding you tight to his chest. Your body shudders in his lap, every muscle locked in panic and aftershock.
He barely misses a beat. His hips slow, grinding up into you, drawing out the last flickers of pleasure as he calls out, voice strangled but passable. “Uhh, no! Just..uh..just watching some porn, you know how it is, man!”
Sang-min lets out a long, exhausted sigh through the door. “God, you’re weird. Seriously, do you ever go out? Have you seen Eun-mi?”
Nam-gyu’s eyes flick down to yours, wild and giddy, his hand still muffling any noise you might make. His cock is still inside you, hot and pulsing, twitching with every heartbeat.
He clears his throat. “Uhh, I think she said she was going for a walk?”
There’s a pause. You can hear Sang-min thinking, shifting his weight just on the other side. Your pulse pounds in your ears.
“Oh. Okay. Didn’t see her.” Sang-min sounds distracted, already moving on, keys jangling as he turns back down the hall. “Don’t stay up all night watching that shit, hyung.”
“Wouldn’t dream of it,” Nam-gyu calls back, voice too smooth.
The footsteps fade. The apartment is silent again.
You let out a breath, half sob, half laugh. Nam-gyu slowly slides his hand off your mouth, thumb brushing your cheek, the other arm still around you, keeping you pinned to his lap.
You’re shaking, half from adrenaline, half from what you just did, what you’re still doing. His cock is still inside you, thick and hard, every twitch a reminder of just how close you came to being caught.
He grins up at you, eyes wild, triumphant. “That was close,” he murmurs, voice low and wicked. “You like the risk, don’t you?”
Your heart’s still jackhammering from the close call. Every cell in your body is ringing with heat, but beneath it now is something colder, sick, rising. Your skin prickles. His cock is still buried inside you, thick and hard, twitching like it’s not finished, but your mind is already racing ahead.
What the fuck did I just do?
You shift like you’re going to climb off of him, shaky, breathless, shame blooming hot behind your ribs.
Nam-gyu’s eyes snap to yours.
“What are you doing?” he mutters, catching your waist before you can lift.
“I..I need to go,” you say. Your voice is small. You don’t look at him. “I can’t..”
“Seriously?” His grip tightens. “You’re just gonna leave me like this?”
You freeze.
His jaw flexes, irritation flashing behind the sweat on his skin. “I didn’t even finish.”
You swallow hard. “Nam-gyu..”
He scoffs, breath coming sharp through his nose. “Wow. Okay. So you get off on fucking your fiancé’s brother, but the second it gets real, you pull the plug? Cold.”
Your stomach twists. “That’s not..”
“Don’t lie to me, Eun-mi.” His voice is quieter now, but sharper. He lifts his hips once, deliberately, grinding inside you like punctuation. “You were dripping when you walked in here. Don’t act like I forced you.”
You flinch. “I know I wasn’t forced.”
“Then why are you running?”
You open your mouth but nothing comes out. It’s too much, his hands on your skin, his cock still stretching you, the ring on your finger pressed hard against his chest.
“You think I planned this?” you say, voice breaking. “You think I wanted this to happen?”
He laughs, bitter and low. “You showed up in a nightshirt and a thong. If you didn’t want this to happen, you’re dumber than you look.”
You try again to climb off, but he doesn’t let you. He sits up instead, still inside you, his hand gripping your jaw now, forcing your eyes back to his.
“Thought you were better than that,” he says. “Didn’t peg you for a fucking tease.”
That hits something deep, humiliation or anger or both. Your hand shoves at his chest, but it only pushes you closer.
“I’m not a tease,” you hiss.
He grins at your answer, all mean satisfaction, hands sliding back down to your hips to lock you in place. “Yeah? That so?” He tilts his head, eyes raking over your face, flushed, guilty, ruined. “Then don’t run away just because you got what you wanted.”
You glare, but his cock is still deep inside you, throbbing, making you ache and burn and feel everything you’re trying to shut out. “You don’t know what I want.”
His hands tighten, forcing your hips down against him, grinding you on his lap until you shiver. “You want to act innocent? Princess, you’re still fucking dripping on my cock. You’re squeezing me so tight I could barely hold it together when your little fiancé was at the door.” He lets out a breathless laugh. “Maybe that’s what you want, huh? Want to see how close you can get to being caught?”
You try to look away. He catches your chin, tilting your face back, voice dropping to a dangerous whisper. “Or maybe you just like knowing you’re the one who gets me like this. My brother’s perfect little bride, whoring herself out on my cock and thinking about running before I even cum.”
He bucks his hips, not hard but deep, making you gasp. “You really gonna leave me like this?” he taunts, eyes dark. “Gonna go crawl back into his bed, full of me, and just hope nobody notices?”
You tremble, shamed and impossibly turned on. “Stop it,” you breathe.
He grins wider, lazy and cruel. “Make me.” One hand leaves your hip, sliding up under your shirt, rough thumb circling your nipple until you arch into his touch. “You want to be good? Show me. Move for me. Make me cum. Show me you’re not just a fucking tease.”
Your face burns, but his voice is velvet poison, and your body betrays you. He lets go of your hip just enough for you to rock, to set the pace. His cock throbs inside you, greedy, needy, and you realize you want to do it, you want to make him lose control because of you.
“That’s it,” he groans, fingers digging into your thigh, guiding you. “Fuck, you feel so good. Faster. Don’t stop.”
You ride him, hips rolling, still trembling with the sick rush of it all. He’s watching you like he’s starving, mouth open, sweat beading at his temples, every muscle straining.
“Look at you,” he rasps. “Getting off on this. On being mine, even if it’s just for tonight.” His hands frame your face, thumbs stroking your cheekbones. “You want me to cum inside you? Want me to ruin you for him?”
You whimper, yes, no, it doesn’t matter. All that matters is the heat building between you, the sound of his breath turning ragged, the desperate edge in his eyes as you move faster.
“Come on,” he begs, voice breaking. “Make me cum. Prove you want it. Prove you’re not just his.”
You kiss him, messy and desperate, hips grinding down, chasing every filthy promise you swore you’d never make.
He groans into your mouth, fingers bruising your thighs, and you feel him snap, hot, shuddering, his body jerking as he spills inside you. He buries his face in your neck, breathing you in, holding you tight while the last shudders wrack through him.
When it’s over, the only sound is your own heartbeat pounding in your ears and Nam-gyu’s ragged, satisfied breathing against your throat. His arms loosen but don’t let you go right away, like he’d keep you here if he could, sticky and full of him, marked where only you’ll know.
You pull in a shaky breath and push your palms to his chest, needing space, needing to move before you completely fall apart. “I have to go,” you whisper.
He doesn’t fight you, just watches, lazy and smug, as you climb off his lap. You wince at the slick heat sliding down your thigh, his cum, everywhere, impossible to ignore. Your shirt’s all twisted, your hair a mess, and your face feels stamped with guilt.
You don’t look at him as you slip into the bathroom. The light is too harsh, the mirror too honest. You splash cold water on your cheeks, wipe away smudges from your mouth, clean between your thighs with shaking hands. It doesn’t matter how hard you scrub, the shame stays.
You find a clean pair of panties in the laundry and tug them on, numb. The ring on your finger feels like a burn.
When you creep back out, Nam-gyu is sprawled in bed, one arm behind his head, grinning like the devil who won. “Don’t get lost,” he whispers, just for you, and it makes your stomach twist.
The apartment is quiet, lights out in the hall. You walk silent down the corridor, every step heavier, replaying every sound, every gasp, every filthy promise you never should’ve made.
You slip back into Sang-min’s room. He’s curled up on his side, blankets bunched at his waist, his face open and peaceful in sleep. Your heart nearly cracks from the weight of it.
You slide into bed next to him, careful not to wake him. He stirs anyway, sleepily reaching for you, pressing a kiss to your shoulder.
“There you are,” he murmurs. “Missed you. You okay?”
You choke down a sob, force your voice steady. “Yeah. Just needed some air.”
He pulls you closer, his arms warm and safe, and you let him. You let yourself pretend for one long, aching minute that you’re still that girl, the one he thinks you are, the one you were supposed to be.
He falls back asleep easily, breath soft against your neck.
But you don’t sleep. Not for a long, long time.
You lie there, wide awake, staring at the ceiling, feeling Nam-gyu’s teeth in your skin and Sang-min’s ring cutting into your finger, wondering if the ache inside you will ever fade.
—
The days after feel like living inside someone else’s life. Sang-min is kind to a fault, gentle, steady, asking how you’re feeling, planning dinner with his parents, sending you little reminders to eat, to rest, to let him take care of things. It only makes you feel worse. Every time he looks at you, your chest tightens until it’s hard to breathe.
Nam-gyu, meanwhile, is impossible. He’s always around. Always smirking. Always finding a way to stand too close or drop some joke that’s only funny to you and him. Sometimes he just watches you over the rim of his coffee cup with that knowing little curl of his mouth, like he’s counting down the seconds until you break.
You don’t sleep much. You flinch every time Sang-min touches you, and Nam-gyu notices, never says a word, but never looks away either.
It builds, slow at first, like pressure behind your eyes.
It all breaks on a quiet Sunday, sun slanting through the kitchen windows, the three of you in one room like it’s just another normal day.
Sang-min is at the stove, humming, talking about plans for dinner with his family. “I figured we could stop by my mom’s place, maybe grab dessert on the way? She wants to show you the new wedding china. Hyung, you’re coming too, right?”
Nam-gyu is at the counter, picking at fruit, barely listening. He grins at you like he already knows what you’re about to do.
You stand there, staring at the tile, hands twisting in your shirt, your breath coming fast and shallow.
Sang-min turns to you, smile soft, oblivious. “Babe, you okay? You look pale. Want me to make you something?”
Your voice comes out small, cracked. “I can’t do this anymore.”
The whole room stills. Even the refrigerator hum seems to go quiet.
Sang-min’s face creases, gentle confusion. “Do what, sweetheart?”
You feel tears sting your eyes. Nam-gyu’s eyes are locked on yours, waiting. Daring you.
You swallow. “I can’t, Sang-min, I can’t do this anymore. I can’t pretend.”
He blinks, trying to process, his grip on the spatula tightening. “Pretend what?”
You meet his gaze, shaking. “I’ve been sleeping with your brother.”
The words echo, a gunshot in a silent house.
Sang-min goes perfectly still, shock flattening his face, all that sweetness wiped clean. He looks at you, then at Nam-gyu, then back, eyes searching for any way out.
Nam-gyu just leans back against the counter, arms folded, almost bored. “She’s not lying.”
Sang-min stares, disbelief folding into something sharper. “You..are you serious? Are you fucking serious?”
Nam-gyu shrugs. “Pretty sure she was serious last night. Want details, or are we good?”
The anger finally cracks through. Sang-min crosses the kitchen in two strides, fist raised, wild and off-balance. “You piece of shit..”
He swings, a clumsy, desperate punch, but Nam-gyu just sidesteps, all lazy reflexes. The blow misses, harmless but humiliating.
Sang-min staggers, breath ragged, rage and heartbreak blurring together. “You’re fucking sick..both of you.”
Nam-gyu laughs, bitter and bright. “Come on, hyung, don’t act surprised. You always did like to pretend you could keep anything you wanted.”
Sang-min turns on you, voice raw. “How long?”
Your voice is barely a whisper. “I don’t know. Awhile.”
He backs up, hands trembling, eyes shining with betrayal. “Unbelievable. Just..unbelievable.” He looks at Nam-gyu again, like he can’t decide who he hates more. “Get the fuck out of my house. Both of you.”
You flinch, tears spilling over, but Nam-gyu just straightens, unfazed. “Sure, hyung. Whatever you say.”
You look back one last time, at Sang-min’s crumpled, broken face, at the home you helped build, and realize the truth: nothing will ever fit back together the way it was.
You walk out with Nam-gyu, the door slamming behind you, the sound final, ringing in your ears long after you’re gone.
The door slams behind you, and the echo feels like it’s still bouncing inside your chest. The hallway outside the condo is too bright, too clean, too quiet. You’re barefoot, your heart hammering, your hands shaking like you’ve just walked out of a car crash.
Nam‑gyu swings the strap of his bag over his shoulder and steps up next to you like nothing happened. “Well,” he says, almost amused, “that went about as well as expected.”
You stop, stare at the carpet. The ring feels like it’s burning your skin. “Shut up.”
He chuckles under his breath. “You’re welcome, princess. You wanted honesty. Now it’s honest.”
You spin on him, tears hot on your cheeks. “Don’t fucking call me that. Don’t touch me.”
He raises an eyebrow but still reaches, slow, like he’s going to drape an arm over your shoulders. You shove him hard in the chest, both palms flat, enough to make him take a step back.
“Don’t. Fucking. Touch me,” you snap. “You ruined everything.”
He blinks, a flicker of something, hurt? crossing his face before the mask slides back on. “Nah. Don’t blame this on me. You walked into my room. You climbed onto me. You said yes every step of the way.”
Your throat closes. “You’re a liar.”
“Maybe,” he says, voice low, “but so are you.”
You wipe at your face, furious at the tears. “Fix it.”
He tilts his head, incredulous. “Fix it? How do you want me to do that, huh? You want me to un‑fuck you? You want me to go in there and tell hyung it was all my fault, that you’re some helpless victim? You think that’s going to make it better?”
“I don’t care!” you hiss, stepping closer, shaking. “We both live in that house with your brother. You have to fix it. You have to..”
He cuts you off, a bitter laugh. “No. You don’t get to drop a bomb and hand me the wires like I’m the one holding it. You knew what this was. We both did.”
You grab his wrist, desperate. “I can’t go back in there. Not like this. He was..he was so good to me. He didn’t deserve this.”
Nam‑gyu looks at your hand on his, then at your face. For once, there’s no smirk, no lazy grin. Just something raw and quiet. “Neither of us deserved it,” he says. “But we did it anyway.”
You let go of him like you’ve been burned. “I hate you.”
He exhales, looks down the hall, then back at you. “Yeah,” he says softly. “You hate me now. But you came to me first.”
The words hit harder than you expect. You flinch, but he doesn’t push it. He just shoves his hands into his pockets and starts walking toward the elevator.
You wait until you’re alone. The door to the stairwell slams shut somewhere, echoing up and down the empty hallway. Your hands are shaking so badly it takes three tries to unlock your phone. The text screen blurs with tears you can’t stop.
You type: I’m sorry. Please. Can we talk? I know you hate me. I just… I need to see you. Please, Sang-min.
You stare at the screen, thumb hovering over “send.” You almost delete it. You almost throw the phone away. But you don’t. You send it. You wait.
A minute passes. Then another. Then three. Your heart is crawling up your throat, every ring on your phone making you want to run and hide.
Then it buzzes.
Meet me at the cafe by Hapjeong station. Thirty minutes. Don’t be late.
You nearly cry in relief and dread both.
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The cafe is bright and humming, filled with couples and families who don’t know that the world just ended at Table 6 in the back. Sang-min is already there when you arrive, immaculate, quiet, looking out the window. There’s a coffee in front of him, untouched, his hand wrapped tight around the paper cup.
You slide into the seat across from him. He doesn’t look at you at first.
You try to speak. The words snag. “Sang-min..”
He holds up a hand, eyes flat, tired. “Don’t. Don’t do that thing where you cry and tell me it was a mistake. I know it was a mistake. I’m not an idiot.”
You look down. “I’m sorry.”
“Yeah. I got your text.” His mouth twists. “You’re lucky. I almost didn’t answer.”
Silence. The world spins on outside, buses rolling by, a toddler screaming somewhere near the door. It feels impossible that everyone else gets to keep living like nothing’s happened.
He glances at you, finally. “You want to know why I agreed to meet?”
You nod, numb.
He sighs, thumb digging into the cup until the paper dents. “It’s the wedding. My mom is obsessed. My family already has half the guest list booked at the Grand Hyatt. My father’s paid deposits for three different venues. If I cancel now, I get to answer a million questions about why. About us. About you. About my brother.” His jaw works. “You think I want to tell them that my fiancée and my little brother were fucking in my own house?”
You flinch, tears threatening again. “I didn’t mean for..”
He cuts you off, voice low, shaking. “I don’t care what you meant. It happened. It’s done.”
You swallow. “So… what happens now?”
He laughs, bitter. “What happens now is I keep pretending. You do, too. We keep everything planned. I keep telling everyone how happy we are. You smile for the cameras. You wear the ring. You show up to family dinners and let my mother show you off. You act like you love me, at least until I figure out what the fuck I want to do next. You owe me that much, don’t you think?”
Your breath stutters. “I..yeah. Okay. I’ll do whatever you want.”
He nods, silent. His hands tremble just a little. He stares at you like he’s searching for something left to salvage. “Good. Because if you ruin this for me in public, I swear to God, I’ll ruin you right back.”
You nod again, silent and empty.
He stands, taking his coffee, not waiting for you to get up. “Don’t be late for dinner tonight. My mother will want to see the ring.”
