How is it, to be in Sword Art Online? Why do you want to get out? Aincard is a beautiful place, but that's only the surface. It's a cage. You can't get out of there, and you must feel a harsh feeling of wanting to escape. It isn't you having control over your own situation anymore. Someone else put you here, and have you one chance to come out, only with your life at risk. You're isolated, far away from your own reality and your own life. Perhaps you have friends, a nice house, an awsome class or a dream to fulfill that want you to go back to reality? I'm sure you have. But as time goes by, that isn't what you're thinking about. What you're really afraid of is what happens while you're in Aincard. First surely the people that knew you visited you on the hospital, left flowers and talked to you, perhaps held your hand. But while laying there with nails in your arms, unaware of your surroundings, what you're afraid of is being forgotten. When you're in Aincard, the time outside will move on. It won't stop. Your friends will go out while you're in the hospital. Your family will have dinner while you're in the hospital. Your cat will scratch it's ears and your dog will chase it's tail while you're in the hospital. People won't come visit you forever. The numbers will decrease, and they'll feel a heavy burder that they have to visit you. You'll became a burder. And so, they will force themselfes to not think about you, living on and creating now bonds and memories. Being in Aincard means having your time stolen from you. The time where you had so much plans, or perhaps no plans at all but at least was to do something, is gone. The fact that nothing was your own will, the fact that someone chosed it for you, the fact that you're not in charge of your own fate, is what makes you sad. Or perhaps mad. And what is it, exactly, to risk your life? How is it to face a monster and knowing it could kill you? How is it, entering the boss floor, not knowing what await you in the darkness? I don't know. Depend on your character, perhaps. But for a normal human, that isn't normal. We're not supposed to handle that kind of situation. We never learned how to react. So don't come and say I didn't feel anything pertacular while facing what decide your fate. Don't come and say I'm having fun while you're still in a battle of your life. Don't be stupid. Of course everything is about your character. But seriously, think. Put yourself in the situation the best you can. That makes it even more exciting! I promise. I don't know what this is. I'm just bored, I think. And a little scared about what's happening outside my window. So I wrote this as a reminder to myself, but also some help for you guys. Do your best to understand your own character! Especially now in the beginning where it should still be a big thing for them. As time pass by they'll surely grow more used to Aincard, but not now. Hugs and love, Sachi-mun.
