I am very grateful we had friends when watching my source. I was afraid I was going to die. I did not, and the changes were unexpected. As of typing this, it has been a week since I watched the episode with Vahar'ai. I am still processing. I am also very grateful to my headmates who have been with me through this and am especially grateful to T'Pol for assuring me that from a plot standpoint my dying in that episode would be quite illogical. Of course, I pointed out that Culber was a main character too and he died last season. She proceeded to point out that his actor's name is still in the opening credits of this season.
—Saru fictive who might never go through Vahar'ai because watching myself destroy drones two episodes later was terrifying
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