#sarxng

[mintsaviour]

@sarxng replied to your post:

well pardon me for being one man up against an entire cult of crazies

if you just told the rest, it would have been much easier from the get-go. but, nah, you made yourself do everything by yourself. 

[mintsaviour]

@sarxng replied to your post:

new gatorade flavor: elixir of salvation

inb4 rika collabs with gatorade to make this a legit thing

[kvlpa-moved-blog]

a twisted game // a v/su roleswap au playlist @sarxng

Hyde/Monster mashup — VIXX/EXO

Think of You — Defsoul (JB of GOT7)

Sweet Lies/House of Cards/Baby Don’t Like It mashup — EXO/BTS/NCT-127

Into The Void - VIXX

Coming Down - Halsey

Why - Zia

Chokehold - Adam Lambert

Le Bien Qui Fait Mal - Mozart Opera Rock

[mintsaviour]

@sarxng replied to your post: @sarxng replied to your post: @sarxng replied to...

‘don’t force them to take it’ she says as if she didn’t try to give every guest at a party wine laced with the elixir of 'salvation’ don’t want to go down to that level of violence says the woman who LITERALLY STABS ME

it's not forcing if they take it voluntarily. what they don't know won't hurt them, right? you do this all the time. telling little lies... hiding secrets. i thought i would take a page out of your book. almost worked. i wonder how you are able to get away with it all the time without anyone blinking an eye. 

[mintsaviour]

@sarxng replied to your post: @sarxng replied to your post  okay but let’s...

fake happiness is only temporary. particularly when you force drugs down their throats and hurt them only to coddle them afterwards so that way they feel safe and cared for when in reality they’re entirely at your mercy. it’s normal to feel pain and grief and what makes life worth living is working through it so you can experience genuine happiness

i don’t force them to take it..! only if i need to take drastic measures. most of them take it on their own accord. i try to make violence and forcefulness minimal as possible. i can’t say the other believers follow this to a t. i personally do not what to go down that low of a level. i thought you knew me better than this... all we feel is this pain and grief. trying to find our own happiness and a place where we feel safe and wanted. don’t you see that, v? are you that blind that you can’t see a world that i want?

[mintsaviour]

@sarxng replied to your post 

okay but let’s be real here you don’t even want to be helped you just want to live in you’re delusional world and drug innocent people so that they’ll worship you and fill the void in your life

... do you really think that way, v? do you really think that i don’t want to be helped? that i do not want to be saved? i think a better question is, ‘am i really worth to be saved?’ ‘is it even possible to help me?’ i know how to help others, but not myself. so, that is what i plan on doing. even if i am a lost cause, i don’t want anyone else to feel left behind. that they don’t feel the same that i do. they are already much happier with me and the fantasy idea of creating a paradise where they feel no pain or suffering. do you really want to take away their happiness? even if its fake? 

[mintsaviour]

@sarxng replied to your post

and in my defense I never went to therapy to deal with my issues but you did and you’re still fucked

yea cause going to a handful of therapy sessions is going to magically help me. we are basically in the same boat here.

[mintsaviour]

@sarxng replied to your post:

whose fucking side are you on sujin

obviously the side with the most chocolate bars, duh.