as I’m writing this, it’s almost 5am and I can’t sleep, which is probably the worst time to be thinking about how I don’t really know for sure whether I’m Maul or Savage (or maybe even both?). everything has been just vague enough that I know I’m at least one of them, but there’s no clear signs pointing to which. before the dream I described in my first kinfession here, I hadn’t interacted with any star wars media for months, but I had considered Savage to be a constel of mine and, earlier than that (in 2021), a comfort character (that I was scared of calling kin because I wanted to Make Sure and not be kff). when I got the dream, I kind of assumed that this was a sign that I was kin with Maul. I’ve always put too much stock in my dreams. maybe I’m exactly where I started. I was so sure a couple weeks ago. that dream was different than most, though… but I can’t remember why I immediately saw it as a sign that I was Maul (rather than Savage) even though we both used double-bladed red lightsabers. I’m gonna have to look back on what I wrote, think on this even more, and maybe hope for another memory-dream.
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