#sayioms

[exposedsoliloquy]

Silent SOS

You shouldn’t think like that they said to me Give it a chance they told me It’s through experience I said to them It’s because I’m tired I told them

I am jaded now, I had too much emotions before

I cannot trust now, I trusted too much before

I no longer search now, I’ve searched far and wide before

I’ve gave up now, I’ve tried so hard before

I cannot commit now, I committed too much before

I am strong now, I was weak before

I am happy now, I was unhappy before

I am alive now, I was dead before

I’m perfect now, I was full of imperfections before

But actually.

I still feel. I still want to trust. I still wish to be chosen. I still do not wish to give up. I still hoped for commitment I still fear I still feel pain I still felt lifeless I know I am far from perfection

But I am tired.

So I shall rest.