I have one SD right now, but it honestly feels like freelance escorting at this point. We never do anything besides the initial hang out before the grand finale, and then he immediately takes me home. I don't have a problem with it, at all. Actually prefer it compared to the "relationship fantasy" some guys have pursued with me. Makes me cringe to even think about keeping up with that mushy shit. Thank God my vanilla bf is totally okay with what I do. If anything, it's made our relationship stronger. Only downside of that part of my life is that his roommates know and they make jokes about prostituting myself for certain things for their personal gain. They don't realize what an emotional toll it takes on me. After a meet, I scrub myself in boiling hot water and throw on my most comfortable clothes and try to bring myself back from the dissociation I had to put myself in to get thru those couple of hours.
Also, I have a vanilla job now so I won't have to rely as heavily on what's his face😊