Made for You
That's what you told me at least. Several times in fact! We talked for so many hours nearly every single day. We got really close but things were moving fast, I think. You wanted to just be friends. After the flowers, the affection, the words. Everything. Because you caught feelings for another girl. I don't even know what to say or what to think. You called me immature but you don't understand that I'm upset. How else am I supposed to react? I'm supposed to be okay with that and brush it off? Everything was fine when we talked this morning and out of no where... literally. You just cut me down. You wanted to stay friends. How can I stay friends? Knowing that I was a second choice and that I wasn't good enough and you told me you liked me and all the reasons why you liked me and all these good things.
Your note read "If actions speak louder than words. Then this is my way of shouting." I thought your actions spoke pretty loud... But your words cut like a hot knife through butter and all I could do was sit there. Dumbfounded with nothing to say and no idea what I was supposed to even think. I still dont understand what happened.. at all. I feel absolutely crushed and I'm rendered speechless.
I seriously have no luck at all. I did so good at staying single. I took a chance and I opened up to somebody who I thought actually cared who claims it was 100% a real emotion and meant everything you said... But I really just dont understand. It can't be something that I am doing wrong. I am sick of feeling like its something that I specifically am doing wrong. I am probably just better off single. Its safer, happier, cheaper and definitely easier to deal with. I dont get the good ones, so why should I put myself through this kind of torture of opening up to someone?