#school feelings

[watching-the-apocalypse]

I feel like I've been here forever

they will give me my sailor hat and I will sail on the seas of life

The freedom in the sails feels like rejection

just as I had gotten on my feet am I being placed in an even bigger lake, where I cannot even comprehend that there will be a shore

[insta-mental-bility]

Just. That feeling when you lie and say “yea I completed that assignment” knowing full well you didn’t- then they ask to see it. So you flip through your papers panic filling your fingertips; then you find the assignment and it’s done and you just. flood. With equal parts haha-take-that-fuckers and oh-shit-I-thought-I-was-dead

[teaganteaganbobeagan]

I just have so many feelings.

[lliebling]

this whole unrest with the strikes and then being treated like cattle and feeling totally uncomfortable around all these people who dont care about my wellbeing is hurting my emotional state 

[tinyclam]

I hate what school does to us. It's all about living in the future the future the future. "Get a head start on your assignments", "that's due next week", "hey after this it's college". Well maybe I'd like to just sit back for a day and not have to wonder if my paper will be done by tomorrow. Maybe I'd like to live in the now and smell those damn roses I keep hearing about.

[kindlingkid-blog]

tonight we discussed the evolution of Deaf poetry and internalized audism and how we can reframe history through counter-narratives and I felt the exact same absolute captivation with his lecture that I remember feeling during my very first class with him two years ago

it is a feeling I've never gotten learning about any other subject in an academic setting and it is so wholly reaffirming that I am studying the right thing and it isn't a feeling I've had about my major in a while

now i'm snug in bed and i finally found some time to start reading the copy of meg day's chapbook that she sent me in the mail and doing this also feels right

on the title page of the book she wrote: "to max, who also starts with the hands." 

[dayglopirate]

can't stop having feelings about history enough to actually like, plan my next semester out. also feeling kind of like, not as drawn to archaeology lately and it's making it hard to do the ridiculous amount of lab work on my plate rn.