I needed You
Awake and crying, alone in the dark,
Calling me, begging me, “Make the pain stop.”
No medicine, no calm within, no idea what to do .
Lost and scared. I needed you.
Choking and coughing, can’t speak through the tears.
Is it really fair for one to suffer, of so little years.
24 hour pharmacies? None here... What do I do?!
Panicking and alone. I needed you.
Hold the phone, remember your words.
Stare at your name upon my screen.
Seeing what I can’t unsee, makes it worse, its true.
Needing help and comfort. I needed you.
Survive the night with a tear in my chest,
Feel the cold, in my open wound.
News now, that someone’s life withdrew.
Fueled by anger, he turns it on us. I needed you.
An altercation, emotions raw.
Words said, that can’t be unsaid.
Unwanted, in the home, you thought you knew.
No way to escape. I needed you.
Shattered. In pieces, I question myself.
My purpose, my reasons. “Welcome to self-doubt.”
But your words in my head keep me from you.
“If you need me” and “goodbye.” Well, I did. I needed you.
Daniel Zuppa
02/10/17