#scurvy rambles

[scurvydogs]

it gets slightly warm and the sun comes out and suddenly the world doesn’t feel like it’s crashing down around me

also update on my one post on 3/3: I won’t be dropping my two half semester classes. I’m going to do them. It may be a bit hard but it’ll be worth it. Plus they are really interesting sounding classes (films in the Middle East and history of Muslim social movements) and I really don’t want to have to drop them anyways

[scurvydogs]

3/3/26

Trying not to feel like a failure today. Days like today make me hate university and academia. I’m supposed to be starting two half semester courses tomorrow and my professors posted the classes today on Canvas… “yay that’s great!” One who knows my love for education would say but… I’m stressed to the point I’ve made myself physically ill and having muscular cramps. How fun! (Sarcasm). These courses at condensed from 15 weeks to 7 weeks and still have the same amount of content. So id pretty much be having to do 2 weeks worth of content per week for 2 separate classes. I simply cannot do that. I work and frankly, have a life outside of academia. I really don’t need to have this level stress that led me to me having a really bad panic attack that I nearly vomited. I cannot handle stress so I need to build my life, and in turn my academic life, with as minimal stress as possible.

Anyways, I emailed my advisor for her insight and just the thought alone of dropping these classes has put me at some level of peace.

[scurvydogs]

2/24/26

Day two of being the world’s most non-aesthetic studyblr in existence. My horrendous set up for the day and pretty much 80% of the semester. Classic laptop lecture + iPad notes combo. Majority of my classes are online so my classes have been in bed. Has its perks and downfalls but I can’t wait to be back on campus more next semester.

Today was mainly focusing on my lectures for politics in the ancient world. Very fun class but the lectures are so so dense. I’m not really a classicist so it’s fun to have a look into that world now and then.

Btw I didn’t realize I had to blur out so much when I took this photo. Reveal of a vague outline of me! Fun!

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2/23/26

First day of trying to post to studyblr and already forgot to take an aesthetic ass photo at on campus lol. Nonetheless, today was a good day cuz it was seminar day! I’m taking a women and gender history seminar that meets every Monday for two and a half hours. It’s my first seminar and it’s been really fun and insightful. We’ve been talking a lot about research and archives which I love love love. Can’t wait to start our major research project.

This semester is a bit boring tho, that seminar is my only in person lol. All my other classes are online since three out of the five classes I’m taking were GEDs that happened to be online. Oh well. I commute so I see it as a nice break for the driving + bus ride back and forth. Also really nice with my part time job too.

[scurvydogs]

Have to write the proposal for the big research project for my seminar in women and gender history by Monday and I’m very torn at what I want to do. I either want to research women and the law during the French Revolution or modern Egyptian feminists (the latter sprouting recently because we had to find a primary source on a list of given topics and I chose Egyptian feminists. Fell down a very very fascinating rabbit hole)

[scurvydogs]

to get a phd in history and be super happy until I need to actually find a job after or get a masters in library and information since and potentially become an academic librarian and be underpaid or go to law school and practice law but potentially not enjoy it and be overworked and stressed all the time. ugh