#sdxodiary

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Gotta wake Benji up && go get Jayden Cash from school. It's his dad's day so I pick him up && then his dad gets him shortly after that. Some people may think that's annoying but just seeing him for 45 minutes in the middle of the day makes my heart so much more content about him being gone for the night -__- But yea, when we get back I'll probably clean && then finish up this simple painting I started. Hoping to finish two paintings I've been putting off forever,, idk what my problem is; I love painting, I know it makes me happy, makes me feel good but I don't do it regularly ... Because? Yea, not sure. But today is day 3 of my revamp so I gotta get something done today!!! Alotta somethings done! -SugarDollxo [Sept2nd2015]

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21 Day - Revamp My Life

Day 1 - reevaluate // shopping // super cleaning Day 2 - more shopping // DIYs // tea detox // start yoga Day 3 -

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Brynnie Bear came over this morning,, he had SUCH a good visit! I always love visiting with her, we always have good talks. Jayden had a great day at school,, the first week is officially over! Woohoo! We are pretty stoked on our first weekend :))) We are currently waiting for our Dada to get home && watchin some RegularShow. Benjamin has been sleeping SO MUCH lately cause he's teething,, kinda makes me sad. He's such a little champ tho! -SugarDollxo [August14th2015]

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Just took care of a bunch of stuff that I've been putting off. I'm so so thankful when everything works out perfectly!!! Yay!!! I have SO MUCH I want to && NEED to get done this week but We have already taken care of most of the big stuff! Jayden's ceiling is fixed && we are working on cleaning out his room today,, he's so happy! More later....

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Yesterday/Last night was SO AMAZZING! Like at first I made myself not wanna go,, between driving and being away from my kids && my husband… I just wasn’t feeling it,, i left like 3 hours late- and... as soon as I was actually on my way I witnessed this car accident && a few other things happened which made me really grateful && made me feel like everything was happening as it should… Because literally had it been a minutes difference (a couple of times) it woulda been me in that car accident.

So I had a good day with Brynne,, we got lunch,, hung out,, picked her son up,, I did her hair (cut && color) && then she made an amazing dinner && then I finally left lol,, I got home around 1030/11 I think. Kyle && I had a really great night together,, Benji was obviously already asleep when I got home.

This morning was a little off,, that’s so annoying to me. Kyle took care of Benji tho and let me sleep in a little. // We had plans to do a challenge video with my mom tonight but we had to cancel it because this is the only time for us to get some dry wall fixed. Jayden is gonna be so bummed out.

So I guess the plan is now that… Jayden’s aunt is bringing him home now,, we gotta goto the grocery store && Home Depot. Then we are gonna do the video without my mom…. And then I gotta finish cleaning and what not because when my cousin comes over to fix the ceiling his family is coming over too! Which should be fun. Hopefully somewhere between all the nonsense there's some Mario party.

-SugarDollxo [August3rd2015]

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I spend SO MUCH FUCKING TIME EVERYDAY feeling guilty. Wether I should or not. Usually mom guilt. Occasionally daughter guilt. Wife/relationship guilt. About shit I do. Stuff I say. The stuff I don't do or say.... Uhm,, yea... But usually by the end of the day I'm so tired of feeling guilty and trying to make everyone else feel content that I feel like the universe owes me, like whatever I said or did, it NEEDED to be put out there && I shouldn't feel an ounce of guilt. Once again, the circle gets smaller && I am right in line where I need to be. The ups and the downs even them selves out && if life ain't kickin your ass, you're not doing it right.

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so lately i;ve been obsessing over Law&Order, i;ve never continuously watched it before, but since i;ve been watching it for the past couple weeks i;ve gotten to know the characters and i love it! i don;t even know what episode i started on, somewhere in the middle of season 14 && now i;m at the end of season 15. it;s sooo good. the episode i just watched had THE biggest twist in it, i LOVED it! YAYAYAY!!!! (okay, maybe not THE biggest twist,, but i;m oh so easily amused && I DID NOT SEE IT COMING!)

alrighty,, time to get up! gotta finish cleaning && start laundry,, BLEHHHH. && Kyle accidently took the car seat to work -_- sooo there will be no sonic trips today. seriously tho, i needa give up sonic drinks slash i needa give up soda in general but that;s currently no where near happening. i don; t even wanna say how much i spend on soda. that;s embarrasing,, LMAO.

-SugarDollxo

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My hubby && my brat boys are up now. I'm sitting on the patio journaling && I can hear Jayden Cash's voice over the baby monitor,, oh Jayden man, I love you so so much. Such a big kid. Bleh. && he's going to his dad's today. Time to go get in some play time before he leaves. MARIO KART?! -SugarDollxo