Mar 3, 2017
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#ever since the dawn of my artistic experience I have always had artists whom I looked up to#and also tried to get the attention of without#seeming desperate#like trying to keep it casual#and not just because I was trying to slow my way into a friendship#but also because I'm a very casual friendship kinda person#and I always see them friends with other people without problems#but I can never quite break that barrier#and it's REALLY frustrating#so I think I'll take my plummeting confidence and just let the friends come to me#like always#forever and ever#and realize that my art (skill) isn't enough to attract people as well as my personality#I just wanna feel like I'm an artist without worrying about other big artists backing me up#that's really not what it's all about#art should be about how it makes ME feel#anyway#yeah#bleh#vague blogging forever