Here i am once again, sitting in the back of the classroom, doodling in my notebook. Once the bell rang for lunch, i made my way to the big oak tree that i am always at.
Im pretty much a loner, but it wasnt always like that. Before i had a best friend named Sei then one day she disappeared. No note, no goodbye, no nothing. Turns out they had moved and still didn't bother telling me anything.
I tend not to socialize much in fear of people leaving me for reasons i wont know. But me and sei had a mutual friend, Doyeon, she's stayed with me through everything.
But we are too different, shes student council president, popular, pretty and amazing. Me, im a loner, pathetic loser.
I was lost in thought that i didnt notice the footsteps approaching me.
"hey, y/n." she kneeled down to be the same height as me.
"whats up.." i mumbled a bit while raising my head to look at her properly.
"well besides you missing your second period again," she gave me a small glare before continuing, "i have something for you to do in order to make up for that." a wide grin spread across her face.
"im fine, thanks." i looked back down to my sketchbook. "what even is it?"
"unfortunately you cant refuse and im glad you asked. You need to give the new student a tour of the school." I shoot my face up to look at her.
"what, why me? isnt that like part of your job?" i questioned.
She rolled her eyes, "listen y/n, your failing your second period and thats a requirement to graduate, okay? I managed to convince your teacher that if you do this, she'll bump up your grade." i looked at her confused. "i care about you y/n, i know it might not be the same as you know who but i do care. Your my friend." she reached down and squeezed my hand.
"...okay....thank you doyeon, truly." i gave her the best soft smile i could manage.
"of course, now i know you ditch this period too, so tells go to class." i groaned and she dragged me off the ground. "who even is this new student?" i got up and patted the dry grass off of me.
"not sure, some girl though. But she is coming tomorrow, ill let you know more details later." with a slight nod from me we headed to class.
**Next Day**
Doyeon told me that the new student was going to enter my second period and thats when ill take her around the school.
I was already debating on just backing out and ditching but knowing that Doyeon put in the effort to do this for me, is what made me stay.
I sat down in my regular seat waiting there for class to start. After a few minutes, i took out my sketchbook and started doodling. The teacher began to start talking, then was interrupted by the classdoor opening.
"ah, you must be the new student joining us today. Class please welcome our new student be nice and lets be quiet while she introduces herself."
"Hello everyone, My name is Lee Seo Jeong but you could all me Sei for short. I hope we could all get along." as she finished her monologue, i looked up in shock to see her standing there. After all this time, she was right in front of me. Doyeon was right next to her also, looking at me with wary eyes. Im guessing Doyeon was helping her find this classroom.
Time seemed to freeze when she looked around the classroom with a warm smile before landing on me. I noticed she stiffened a bit, shocked in seeing me also.
"very well. Sei, Y/N here will be taking you around the school." with that i exited the classroom with Doyeon and Sei following behind me.
The teacher pulled Sei back to talk to her. "Please let me know if she causes you any trouble." i rolled my eyes before ignoring their conversation.
"hey, i-i didnt know it was going to be her. If you want i could take her around and you dont have to be here. You could hide in the council room." Doyeon looked worried.
I took a moment to think, i quickly glanced at Sei, now wrapping up her talk with the teacher. I let out a long sigh, "its okay, i dont want you getting in trouble, ill be able to manage." i tried my best to send her a reassuring smile.
She pouted a bit. "alright, well good luck and you let me know if anything. You'll know where ill be." she leaned forward and gave me a peck on the cheek, a habit i've to learned to get used to. She patted my shoulder and walked away.
I heard a soft cough before turning to see Sei looking at me. "lets go"
I took her all around the school, she handed me her schedule and showed her where all her classes were. Last place we ended up was the football field.
"This is it, welcome. you could go ahead and head back, if they mention me just say i went to the bathroom." i sat on the bench and began to pull out a cigarette and lighter out of my sock.
"you know thats bad for you right......y/n" her voice came out softly.
"i honestly dont care what you have to say." i lit my cigarette and took a puff.
She scoffed before stepping to me and pulling the cigarette out of my mouth and stomped it on the ground. I started to glare at her as she made eye contact with me.
"Listen i-i know i hurt you." I looked down "a-and im so sorry, but that doesnt mean ive never stopped thinking about you." I couldnt respond to her, i had to many questions but too much anger to speak properly, so i chose to stay silent.
"a-are you and doyeon dating now?" she looked down and played with her fingers.
"why do you care?" i stood up and began to walk away. " you didnt care when you left me, so why do you care about me and my life now?"
"Can you stop walking and actually talk to me so i could explain." she grabbed my arm and spun me around. I removed my arm from her grip and crossed them, waiting for her to continue.
"i dont have a good reason. I was a coward and selfish. not only did i not think i was coming back but i........ i didnt think there was a chance between us. I like you, y/n. even after all these years i still do. I didnt tell you because i didnt want to get my feelings hurt, and i didnt want to see you hurt. and i know me not telling you was worse, and i regret it every single day. but i promise you i still have strong feelings for you." she stood close to me to the point i could faintly smell her perfume.
"b-but i understand if you dont feel the same or if your dating d-doyeon. I just wanted to let you kn-" i cut her off with a hug, almost instantly she hugged me back.
"its going to take me a while to forgive you, because you really hurt me but i understand. Its just good to have you back Sei." i squeezed her tighter as her hands gripped my hoodie.
