#self destroy

[0pium-blood]

So, I feel even worse.

It's unbearable again. I can't lie down, I can't walk. I can't wash the dishes or clean up properly. I've started forgetting to eat, and sometimes I feel disgusted by food.

A warning sign—I'm sliding into misanthropy. It happened in the spring, and my psychiatrist told me about it. And it needs to be fixed urgently. Aggression and sadness are very unnecessary right now. Oh, fuck.

I have plans for some posts and articles. But it's so hard to squeeze the words out of myself.

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Every day I go to see M at the hospital. That's what keeps me going. I love her so much...

And by the way, I fucking hate crying.

They literally gave me several packs of the medications I needed. I couldn't increase the dosage for three months. Now I've started.

And for a while, I literally had nothing to eat, haha.

[xansimsystem]

Bin grad wieder dabei mich selbst zu verlieren obwohl ich es grade erst gepackt hatte.

[misssclumsy]

*High expectations are on there way to destroy me*

[0pium-blood]

Finally, on the weekend, I am relaxing mentally, and we are just lazily spending time

in a chat room that I stumbled upon by accident, and just for fun, I met a guy and we started talking. Haha, not bad.

I was looking for jewelry to change my piercing. There's almost nothing left, I'll look for new ones.

And today I feel pretty good.

I have a clearer idea of how I want to dress, and now I'm basically close to achieving that, I'm just missing a few things.

I was literally told that I look like I did in 2013...👽

[mlzm296]

Yesterday i was very happy and now i want to destroy myself

[0pium-blood]

I've been looking at some styles and I realize that I couldn't wear them. Although I really like how they look.

I'm trying to figure out what I want to wear. Because I'm not very happy with my wardrobe.

I also have a lot of thoughts about my unhealthy tendency toward vi♡lence and related issues.

Do I understand that many things about me are problematic? Ha, of course. There's a lot I can't talk about.

Basically, I have four friends, including M., but they don't know everything either.

[zaczekajkochanie]

[chiaraminervablog]