#self fear

[bangtanprettymuch]

I must not fear Fear is The mind killer Fear is The little -Death That brings total obliteration I will face my fear I will permit it to pass through me And when it has gone past I will turn The inner eye to SEE Its path Where The fear has gone Their will be nothing Only I will remain

Frank Herbert

[baskinginsilence]

Fear

I have this crippling fear that the minute I leave the room everyone sighs in relief. Because then they can finally relax and be themselves. I feel like when they think of me they feel disgusted. I would be embarrassed to be seen with me too. Maybe if I was more beautiful they would want me around. Then they could be proud to introduce me to their friends. And boys would not be ashamed to like me, or even consider the idea. And this makes no sense because most people seem to enjoy my company. But I still can't seem to shake this feeling. When I am with people I am invincible, bold, friendly, and funny. But the minute I leave is when they have power over me. I let my mind run free with what they thought of me and I can't help but think that they never want to see me again. And that is just sad.