Jul 28, 2021
My mental hardware is junk, and yet I hate treating me like a piece of machine every fucking day. Damn I am so dysfunctional and deteriorating rapidly. This mental decay is unbearable. But damn, workaholism.exe is the only running software that silences this dizzing noise of eternal emptiness and never-ending internal void.
I feel like all parameters reach infinity. Nothing makes sense.
Fuck this burnout!
#mental decay#brain#brain.exe has stopped working#workaholism#excessive workaholism#workaholic#trauma response#my thoughts decay#my memory deletes itself#i can just witness the decay#and watch from above#and talk with myselves#and cry internally#burnout#adhd#aspergers#mental workout#mental workouts#holistic pattern recognition#self refering thoughts#malfunctioning loop#voidloop#like cancer#unhealthy cells/thoughts get created and poison everything