I Choose Myself, and That’s the Spell
No asking if you’re too much.
We were not made to be just enough for anyone else's comfort.
No shrinking to fit inside their silences
You are not a whisper; be the damn thunderstorm.
No more handing out pieces of yourself like party favors
to people who never bothered to stay past the cake.
They took and took and called it love.
Now they get nothing but echoes.
Because we remembered:
Choosing yourself isn’t selfish. It’s sacred.
It’s a ritual.
A razor-lined refusal.
A protection spell scrawled on a bathroom mirror that reads:
“I do not belong to you.”
I spent years trying to be chosen.
By friends who vanished.
By lovers who hollowed.
By institutions that fed on my brilliance and named it “too intense.”
But I don’t audition for acceptance anymore.
Now?I wear solitude like a crown forged in every lonely night I survived.
I write my name in sigils no one else can pronounce.
I hold my own hand when the ghosts return.
I am not waiting to be wanted.
I am the want.
I am the forbidden fruit. The shattered mirror. The lit match.
I am the ache they’ll never soothe,
and the spell they’ll regret casting.
And that?
That’s power.
That’s what makes this summer, my summer. Not trends. Not approval. Not being palatable in pastels.
But owning the storm.
No one owns us. We own them.
SOME NEWS:
🖤 Hawai'i, I have something super special in store for you! Even the person out there who knows, doesn't know the whole deal. Stay tuned.
🖤 I still have some of my old style stickers available on www.magickNmetal.com. New lineup coming September 2nd.
🖤 I will be taking a break from content from Tuesday July 1st, through Sunday July 6th. Be witchy, be rebellious, be real, and I'll be back.
🖤 Diary entry 009-B will go live with Midnight Manifesto on 6/21 on magickNmetal.com
Redacted lines (and greater mythos) are available to paid tiers on Patreon.
Poetic Prayer:Let my spine hold my softness.Let my silence be chosen, not stolen.Let the spell of my namebless my true friends,and bind my enemies.
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🖤 Tuesday – Pinterest was weak so I fed it to the void. RIP 🖤 Wednesday – Instagram @ CuteAndDestroy / TikTok @ magickNmetal
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🖤 Saturday @ Midnight – Midnight Manifesto at magicknmetal.com
🖤 Sunday – Instagram/TikTok again (because soft chaos is still sacred)