#self-congratulatory

[jamesphillimoresumbrella]

I will happily cook for social gatherings, but actually attending...

Gah. The "social" and "gatherings" bits are more trouble than they're worth, especially since it's not polite to whip out a book or your knitting.

[nonbinaryartistsarah]

I went to a thing tonight! I socialized! I went to a queer event and stayed the whole time an even talked to people!

also I drew on the table paper lol (super s was someone else's):

[burning2know]

it's courageous of me to bare it all and I dare to be unpleasant.

[salaciouscrumpet]

Oh my god, after more than a week of my brain refusing to string words together in a cohesive manner I finally just sat down and wrote, and now I have two different chapters to put out today! One from Spy Games and another from Immortals. (And yes, I’m working on the F!Bounty Hunter/Torian fic, too, although I don’t think it’s ready to go up quite yet.)

Go me!

[112testing]

What makes you think that human beings are sentient and aware? There's no evidence for it. Human beings never think for themselves, they find it too uncomfortable. For the most part, members of our species simply repeat what they are told — and become upset if they are exposed to any different view. The characteristic human trait is not awareness but conformity, and the characteristic result is religious warfare. Other animals fight for territory or food; but, uniquely in the animal kingdom, human beings fight for their "beliefs." The reason is that beliefs guide behavior, which has evolutionary importance among human beings. But at a time when our behavior may well lead us to extinction, I see no reason to assume we have any awareness at all. We are stubborn, self-destructive conformists. Any other view of our species is a self-congratulatory delusion.

Michael Crichton

[volcanopunk]

I turn 23 today. 

I feel like most people won’t understand how much of an accomplishment every birthday is for me. I desperately wanted to die every day between the age of 14 and this winter. I still want to die, sometimes, but I feel like I’m finally learning how to live.

Last year, I was washing dishes after a birthday dinner with three extremely dear people, and I experienced happiness for the first time. The pain of understanding what I had been missing drove me to attempt suicide a few days later. I felt like I had been robbed of the first 21 years of my life. In some ways, I absolutely had been.

Since then, I’ve lost two of those very important people, and gained two more. I’ve learned that my family was never truly my family in the first place, and that I have to create my own if I’m ever going to have a home. And, I think, I’ve learned how to be informed and improved, instead of ruled, by all the bullshit I’ve gone through. Though of course, it’s a process.

If you’re feeling suicidal, you need to know that you can kill the bad things inside of you without killing the good things. It’s tough, it’s not fair, and it fucking hurts, but there’s a small, scared child inside of you, and you can’t give up on him.

@hellzhobbit and @cubrone , I fucking love you. Cheers to making it together, day by day.

[unironic-sweatervest-blog]

so are we supposed to congratulate all of the “former racistsTM” for taking down the confederate flag? because they don’t really deserve it. congratulations for doing something that you really should’ve done like years ago

[ceciliajane]

My whole weekend already has been allllll about my China/Vietnam trip this summer. I’m stupidly excited about it and travel planning and research are one of my many talents, if I do say so myself.

So much so, that after talking to my mom for awhile just now, she said that she definitely owes me a few dinners or something while we’re traveling. I don’t personally think she owes me shit because she’s my mom, it’s my vacay too, and I genuinely love this stuff, but I did say that she could buy me one giant tropical fruity drink with a whole pineapple in it when we’re on Nha Trang beach in Vietnam. I want many of those.

Also already have a bunch of updates I’m working on for my travel blog, which I am finally getting running again. You go, girl.

Annnnnnnd today I found out that I have been accepted to teach two terms of Spring School which I mentioned before! Hello fun field trips in Tokyo/Yokohama and extra moooooooney. So, I slept forever earlier today, but I’ve accomplished a lot! Except for showering. I should probably do that now.

I think before bed I’ll tuck in with a cuppa herbal tea and a documentary of film about China. Cozy cozy. *pats self on back for being so motivated and smart and cultured and stuff lately*