#self-reflection meme

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(Self-reflections) 2. What does your muse think of their own age? (for Storm)

“I’ve been called old a few times recently. It feels strange. I don’t feel that old, but I suppose I might seem that way to those who have seen their twentieth summer only recently or who have yet to see it. Still, what is most important to me is that I stay healthy and can keep working.”

(Storm is nearing his forties and is quite much at peace with the fact. He knows that he isn’t young anymore and is glad that he no longer has to be constantly on the move; getting called ‘old man’ tends to be more of a surprise or a source of mild confusion than annoyance.)

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What does your muse think of their own home? [meme thingy]

Self-Reflection | ACCEPTING!

Tazz likes her home well enough, but she feels that it’s lonely. She prefers having company or being away from home on missions because she doesn’t like being left alone with her thoughts for too long as she tends to dwell on darker things. She likes how her house is structured and decorated, but she thinks it’s too quiet when she’s alone.

Sometimes she’ll have Kurohi with her since the home is big enough for him to reside in as well, but he can’t stay all the time since it would be impractical because of his size and would require more energy for him to maintain his smallest size.

To put simply, while she does like her house, she would rather share it with another person.

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(self-reflections) 10. What does your muse think of their own gender? (for your choice)

“I might be many things: a bruiser, an 'venturer, a big party animal... but besides and maybe even 'fore all o’ that, I’m a woman.”

(Haldswys considers herself a woman, and it bears some significance to her. It doesn’t detract from or add anything to her work, but it plays a part in how she acts, dresses and so forth. Transitioning felt like getting pieces of a puzzle fit together, and it brought her comfort and peace of mind.)

“Once, someone called me ‘sir’, and it felt puzzling and empowering at the same time. Another time I found myself yearning for those days when I’d watch the dawn on the Sagolii sands with my skirt fluttering the breeze. Am I a man? No, I’m not... but ‘woman’ sits on my tongue just as ill.”

(Brenda’s gender identity is a bit fluid, and usually they prefer to be referred as ‘adventurer’ rather than any gendered moniker. Sometimes the uncertainty makes them feel almost guilty for doing or liking things that are traditionally associated with one gender or the other, but they try not dwell on it too much or especially show it.)

“...Does it matter?”

(Cain doesn’t feel insulted if someone says that he looks like a girl (why should he? He doesn’t see women as lesser in any way), but the occasional comments have strengthened the feeling of him not 100% being in the manly end of the gender spectrum. As a result, he seldom uses words like ‘guy’ or ‘man’ when talking about himself.) 

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Self Reflection meme: What does your muse think of their own height? for Nara!

“I don’t usually think much about my height. Compared to many people in Eorzea or the men of the Steppe, I may seem small, but I am fairly average for my kind. It doesn’t affect my life much, whether in good or bad, and so I am content with it.”

(Narangelel is actually a bit taller than average for her race, but given the size difference between male and female Au Ras - and the fact that only Lalafells and female Miqo’te tend to be shorter than her - she hasn’t paid the fact much attention.)

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(Self-reflection) 4. What does your muse think of their own fitness? (your choice)

“Ah, I try to keep myself in a good fit for working, but... I admit, I'm a little worried about my strength now that I’m not actively training at the Gladiator’s Guild anymore. I try to make up for that for doing heavy lifting and other similar tasks at the household when they are needed, especially since I’m not that well suited for delicate work.”

(Lumien considers his strength and endurance to be his strong(er) points, even if he has shifted from a would-be swordsman to a retainer. He may have lost some muscle strength after the change, but he still remains fit and at least averagely strong, or possibly stronger than he looks.)

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What does your muse think of their own race (or species)? for Nara

“I am a Kha from the Steppe. Even though I haven’t received a warm welcome in all places of Eorzea, I’ve never wanted to be anything else than what I am. Being a Xaela is what I am, even when I am far away from home.”

(Nara isn’t being completely honest here. She is proud to be a Xaela, but there at least was a time when she secretly wished that she had been born in another tribe - in the hopes that it would have made her feel more “rooted” amongst her kin and either quelled or sated her wanderlust.)

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What does your muse think of their own romantic relations?

“Romance is a lovely idea and something that I’d like to experience one day, I think, but... I’m not sure how. There was a time when I held feelings for someone, but I didn’t dare to speak in the fear of ruining our friendship... and when I finally did tell her, she had already chosen another person. It’s sometimes difficult to see the difference between politeness and... kindness that stems from a deeper connection, and I’m still worried about mistaking the two.”

(Lumien has never been in a romantic relationship, but he had a crush on a friend who liked him but eventually got tired of waiting. He usually starts feeling at least minor attachment to people who have been kind to him, but whether or not it’s romantic is still unclear - even to him.) 

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What does your muse think of their own childhood? for Nara

“I had a good childhood. Both my parents cared for me, and our family had its place in the tribe: my mother made cups and bowls, and my father hunted with the others. We got to serve guests quite often, and those days were my favourite.”

“When I got older, my father started taking me with him when he went to hunt or scout. I’m not sure how my mother felt about it, but she never spoke against it, either; I liked going with him when we had no guests at home. I think he and I might have been a bit similar.”

(Narangelel is the daughter of a Kha artisan and a former Oronir scout, and her father’s tendency to roam may have been the reason why she started feeling wanderlust as well. Nevertheless, she had a good and stable childhood despite the harsh winters and the fairly simple life of the Steppe, allowing her to grow up healthy and to develop several skills from woodworking to hunting.)