Apr 7
so i finally decided to get a collar for myself and i made the [very stupid, in hindsight] decision not to read the new restricted section chapter until i have it delivered and around my neck AND NOW HANGMAN POSTED THE CHAPTER *FUCKING TODAY* AND IT WILL BE PROBABLY BE TWO WEEKS BEFORE I HAVE MY COLLAR AND I CAN READ IT
like listen i know it’s going to mean so much to me because this fic has made me learn so much about myself and it will be so beautiful to have my own collar as part of the fic’s send-off but NOW I HAVE TO BE GOOD AND PATIENT AND WAIT AND I — OUUUGHH GOD.
i can’t believe i brought this agony upon myself.
#restricted section#hangmansradio#collar#selfcollaring#i was specifically instructed not to read this chapter until i had my collar#i know i asked for this but WHY AM I SUCH A MASOCHIST#JESUS CHRIST DONT LOOK AT MY SHAME#EVEN IF YOURE NOT JESUS CHRIST#PLEASE DONT LOOK AT ME AND MY SHAAAMMEEE#it’s fine everything’s fine i’m gonna be fine#:’)