#selfish thoughts.

[moonlitdevotion]

i want whatever makes you happy. but my first thought was that it would mean i'd get to sleep with you less.

i'm trying not to feel bad about that. it's a selfish thought. i know.

[helloocindy]

I've honestly stopped trying.

You're not worth anything to me anymore. I know we weren't the closest, but we weren't the most distant. Everyday was spent having at least a 5 minute talk. Now look at us.. I tried telling you. You meant a lot to me. There's no word that can describe "a lot." It wasn't because you were loved by everybody. It wasn't because you were funny. It was because you were one of the people who actually stuck with me the longest.. Nobody ever stuck with me. I'm happy you did everything you did involving me. I'm glad you were one of the few people I honestly wanted to keep oh so bad. But things don't stay that way forever. I never had feelings above friendship for you, I still don't. You were just a friend I adored a lot, thanks for sticking up with me. You were one of a kind.