#semi-long post

[dark-angel-7]

I just saw a post about Cas being Dean's famine during the "My Bloody Valentine" episode and it made me reminisce about the fact that Destiel was/ is Cockle's fault.

Honestly, it just recurred to me how Misha wasn't supposed to stay long in the beginning of this crazy show we all come to love/hate, how he was known as an odd ball for the way he acts around people yet showed impressive talents right off the bat, and how he was in and out of being part of the show later on up until the end because of the producers trying to let him/Castiel go only to be brought back due to fandom demands. And at some point of the beginning of season 4 til even after the show being over, we have our deranged syndrome patient zero dean winchester's vessel Jensen Ackles latching himself onto Misha, fixating to him like he'll lose his beloved if he looks away, to the point where their relationship bled into their characters in the show.

Like I honestly can not unsee how Jensen may have had to put in some good words for Misha for the producers to keep Misha because of how much he loves being around him (and vice versa for Misha as well) and how the whole concept of Dean not being able to function without Cas (going as far as being suicidal) could have also be linked to Jensen not feeling comfortable of Misha being let go from the show and again because he just really loves being around Misha.

I just... it's genuinely so cute and yet so sad how their love for eachother had made the producers use their love as queerbait on their beloved characters of the show...

[snoogloob]

is there a name for this???

recently I’ve been trying to figure out my gender and whatnot, and I think I’ve finally figured it out. One problem though: I have no clue if there’s a name for it or if I’ll have to make one myself. If any of this seems familiar, please let me know, it would genuinely be so helpful <3

Explanation: (AS OF POSTING THIS: she/her annoys me, they/them is most wanted, and I’ve never properly tried he/him. And yes, I know that neopronouns and the like exist, but I already know I’ll never use them so they’re not on the chart. [see slide 1])

Each time I hear someone use a specific pronoun for me, my “tolerance” for it lowers slightly, [see slide 2] and my “tolerance” for the other(s) rises. [see slide 3] For example: At one point I may prefer she/her, but each time I hear those pronouns used for me, I prefer them slightly less and less until they don’t feel right.

BY THE WAY THOUGH: The /exact/ amount of tolerance I have for each pronoun doesn’t matter when deciding what to use for me unless there’s a REALLY BIG difference. Besides, if someone’s considerate enough to ask I can just tell them.

In real life, like with family and stuff, I’m not fully… out? As whatever this is? So people still use she/her for me and it genuinely gets on my nerves so much, but my anxiety won’t let me tell them :’)

While I currently hate using she/her pronouns for myself, it’ll probably even out eventually if I can get people to use they/them for me more often—

I’m thinking this falls under an umbrella term, but I’m unsure whether it’s genderfluid, polygender, or something else

[0heartangel0]

PERSONA 5 TACTICA IS NOT GREAT: AN ODDLY-CONSTRUCTED RANT

Pt. 4.5: Kingdom 4 Is A Waste Of My Time

After shortly running through each Kingdom's gimmick in the previous part, I realized something that I knew I needed to discuss on its own. And that's the fact that Kingdom 4 is the worst thing to happen to any Persona player since October 4th!

It might sound like I'm exaggerating, but I'm not. It sucks. I hate it. It's garbo! It's what would culminate from Fuuka, Chie, Yukiko, Akechi, and Zenkichi all collaborating to cook something. Blindfolded.

Who in the board meeting stood up and was like, "you know what would make this game better? If we did a dumb boss rush at the final world, while making everything and everyone grey!" And everyone clapped. And the one mother flipper that tried to object was launched to the stratosphere.

Let me tell you something: no one likes a boss rush, especially if it's a recolored version of the same boss. I hated it in Kirby, and I hate it here. And even then, it's just the bosses repeating the same kinds of lines and attacks once you get to them after two missions (I get that that's the point, but still).

The environment isn't even that nice to look at. It's just....Grey and metallic. It's extremely boring, and makes me frustrated having to go through 9 levels of this same environment. Even the enemies are grey!

Oh, but don't worry! The game actually gives a reason as to why everything looks like this!

Translation: After Toshiro found his big boy britches, Salmael ran out of colored ink in his printer, so now has to resort to the black and white setting no one likes.

That's still such a stupid reason, but OKAY!

They also tried to explain why they brought back the bosses, and it's just as dumb!

So, basically, Samael brought these rulers back simply to put fear back into Toshiro....even though he has gone against and conquered these fake versions of these people before! So, obviously, it won't work again, just because they're grey now, and you amped up what they say now!

Isn't it funny just how over-the-top she's being (even though she was always like this)? Isn't it hilarious how the big bad is so desperate to make Toshiro shake in his little boots, that he just had to bring back the same ridiculous-looking mother flippers again, but add a grey coat of paint on them with cute red highlights? No. At least, not to me.

You know what is funny? The fact that they did this just to show how Toshiro has grown throughout this game. But really, this is just unnecessary.

The fact that he has faced these people before and even get scenes before and after their defeat where he accepts what they did to him, and he'll stand up to them SHOWS this! Hell, his awakening + him fighting his shadow was supposed to show this growth! We don't need an extra reminder of this! We kind of get it! The fact he's even down here to face a GOD should be proof enough! We shouldn't have to be forced to relive this same moment of confrontation *3x* to prove to us that Toshiro is no longer the guy that keeps a night light in his bedroom to go to sleep! Then again, I still have my doubts, considering how they handle his growth, but trust me, WE'LL GET TO THAT!

So, in a way, this is all just one big rehash. They might as well have cut to the final boss the moment we got to this Kingdom to save me the trouble!

Also, you mean to tell me that I have to fight Eri AGAIN after having just faced her, not....*8* missions ago?! And she's somehow EASIER??!! AND GREY????? Is this really how we're ending the game???

And this is just the surface - a peek through the curtain, if you will - of just how dumb the villain is, since this is his lair! His Bowser's castle! He couldn't even be bothered to put in some torches! NOTHIN'!!

I keep saying it, but I will talk about the villain at some point! And I'll have words for him!

Then again, I already did, here. Let's just say, insulting his decor was the first step among a whole 2 year-old's Christmas list's length list.

Pt. 1, Pt. 2, Pt. 3, Pt. 4, Pt. 5, Pt. 6, Pt. 7, Pt. 8, Pt. 8.5

[dumplingsjinson]

so i'm spiralling because he hasn't messaged me at all today, since sending me the good night text last night (which, for context, is him saying "good night, love you most <33" AND YET I'M OUT HERE HAVING THE AUDACITY TO OVERTHINK HIS FEELINGS FOR ME). it's been 24 hours AHAHA. i won't be reiterating what i told my friends but the summary of my overthinking and irrational thoughts boils down to this: "yeah so maybe he regrets saying he's ready to become official with you and is now ghosting you".

now i know i could message him first, but i'm thinking if he messages me first, i'd get the reassurance i need. i know it doesn't make sense but let's be real - when has overthinking ever made sense? trust i'm gonna feel much better when he finally messages me.

anyway i've been venting to my friends about it and i'm glad i have a great support network <333

in saying that, it's funny bc one of my friends was like "i've observed that you overthink more when things in the relationship changes, but it settles down once you get comfy" and i'm like... wait a second why is she right though?? so yeah. that's where i'm at right now.

and i can't say i love being an anxiously attached fucking idiot. i absolutely hate it. i just need to get a grip on myself.

also, one of my favourite coworkers is leaving and today was my last shift with him, so i guess that's making me feel even worse bc i'm starting to really hate this fucking job with how understaffed shit is and now someone i actually talk to like a friend and can banter with is now gone. it makes going to work completely miserable.

[sega-saturn-arcade]

this, this particular fact is very. interesting to me. like, i've been over it several times in my head and every time i wonder what it means for me specifically and my canon

I know that I was probably chosen as the 'idol' for the cult, probably by sheer circumstance (i physically cannot remember what happened in that cult or how that came to be, only flashes of being in meetings and being on edge, or walking up to gatherings with the cult members) but it to me seems to make sense

more yapping under the cut vvv

if i was the chosen idol, of course that god damned cursed rock would make sure i was safe from any danger. What danger? I don't fucking know. I was involved in too much to really know which extreme danger mr was protecting me from. but it would also make sense as to why i found the elevator--the elevator that mr apparently boarded that i had genuinely no clue about???? (note to self: think about that later? strange fucking coincidence there)

but what was the 'idol system' that cult had. what did mr want to use me for. what was so important that so many murders had to be made to even be a part of a plan that i wanted no part of, whatever it was?? why was i chosen. MY ASS DIDNT EVEN WANNA BE THERE!! I went down a rabbit hole out of curiosity and got trapped!! what the fuck did that rock see in me?

i have to pray and hope that the plot progresses and wraps up because i don't even know where to start. i don't even know where to look because i have combed over every piece in-game that may even be remotely related to my canon or my situation in-game. why did i have to be in the middle of all the chaos good lird. can't catch a damn break in my klavier life it only got worse in my poob life (instead of down to earth everyday realistic horrors, it's SPIRITUAL HORRORS!!!!!! throws confetti in the air with a really annoyed look

anyways. tl;dr what the fuck did that rock want with me. why specifically me.

[residents-of-the-darkforest]

Base used: F2U Cat Head Base by googaoo on DeviantArt

I was planning this for a while, and have several drawings of some (4?) characters, because I wanted it to be my own. But I'm just too busy for it right now, and really wanted this out. Hopefully I will one day have a version of this where they're all my own art! Until then, I hope you like it!

And if you're new to the blog and wonder why I have dead af cats have kits, here you go: https://www.tumblr.com/residents-of-the-darkforest/717800073334079488/ok-so-i-came-across-this-blog-and-im-super?source=share

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[residences-of-the-darkforest]

Good Old Days

I said before that their life, particularly Martenstep's was similar to that of an adult in an educational kid show--he's knowledgeable and still an adult, but his life is like a happier, more peaceful version of the world.

He and Cricketfur also lived in a VERY peaceful era of the Clans. There was no battle since at least since he became an apprentice (not with their Clan at least), there was still lots of food even in Leaf-bare, and anyone who died was either sick for a long time or an elder (no sudden or unexpected deaths until Cricketfur).

So now being in the Dark Forest....it's definitely a very drastic change. Not just the environment, but the cats themselves. It's like taking a character from a kid show and putting them in a horror movie.

Of course, since he never did anything wrong and is not rejected by StarClan, he can join the Stars whenever he wishes, but he doesn't want to. Being with his brother again is worth all of that.

Besides, now he has kits, as does Cricketfur. He wouldn't give them up for anything, but he does often think about that old life, and what it would be like if he was still there but with his kits. Say, to clarify, he wonders what it would be like to still live there, with his brother safe and sound, and with the kits they have now, just adopted in life.

But he also questions himself. Does he really want to go back there because it was so peaceful?

Or does he want to go back to when that was his reality, before he knew what was really going on, before he knew that his sweet innocent brother was a murderer?

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Bonus them now with their kits! (Needlepaw [Martenstep's daughter] and Crisppaw/oak [Cricketfur's son]). Pineazure is probably off to the side a bit.

Base: Warriors Sleeping F2U Base (ex in desc) by KingoftheKraken on DeviantArt

[mysticmoondancer]

I’ll think another reason why it’s upsetting that the season 2 cliffhanger ending of mbav won’t be resolved is because no broadcasts were wanting to pick the show up which is nuts to me cause who won’t want to see new seasons of a show like that but apparently to the executives it was too dark and mature for them compared to other kid/teen sitcom shows to continue with it which is a shame they just didn’t know what they had I guess

Too me it wasn't even all that dark compared to other supernatural shows I've seen. Although those shows are meant for a more older viewing audience than MBAV was. But still, though. It wasn't really all dark to be considered a pre-teen/teen show. Besides, a lot of teens were also watching some of the more darker stuff like Supernatural and The Vampire Diaries around that time, as well. Compared to those shows, MBAV was more like fluff than horror! Lol!

I just think that the executives in charge of what shows get renewed/aired and which get cancelled probably just didn't like it for whatever reason. I don't think it had anything to do with ratings. Plus, if it did then they must've been only going by just Canada's ratings rather than looking at the rating as a collective from across the world. Which is stupid, in my opinion. Because the who wasn't just shown in Canada, but rather in other countries, as well. I think the execs just didn't like it, is all.

Same with one of my other favorite shows, Legacies, which is about to be cancelled for no real reason at all, as well. Legacies is one of the CW's with decent/good ratings and yet they want to cancel it after 4 seasons. I think they personally just didn't like the show anymore which is why they're cancelling it. Among some of their other well watched series that they're cancelling on that channel, too.

Anyway, I could go on and on about MBAV (and Legacies, too) being cancelled for no good reason. But I won't. This reply is long enough already! Lol! But it is a very touchy subject for me, though. If can't tell. Lol!