#semi-negative

[baymaxmuses]

I apologize to anyone waiting on a thread with me. I've either been dealing with IRL bullshit [sleep problems, financial troubles, etc.], playing a lot of games [currently buried in Palworld Hell], or spending a lot of time on my sideblog over @helluvadrummer. If I still owe you a thread, like this post, and we can discuss in DMs. Mun's mind hasn't been doing so great lately, either, so I don't doubt that a lot of stuff slipped through the cracks and I just don't wanna let you folks down;;

[seasonal-brotp-prompts]

Not a prompt. Not even sure if this is the reason or not, but my refusal to see my favorite two characters as anything but platonic friends may have cost me all my readers in their fandom. I won't change my mind about them, I don't ever want to ship them because they are more awesome as best friends and brothers who aren't blood related, but it still hurts a little and makes it hard to finish the platonic challenge I started.

Awww man, I’m really sorry to hear that! D: I’ve struggled with the same thing; it can be tough to keep up motivation when it seems like nobody appreciates your work. That’s probably a huge reason why I wrote so much for the one fandom where my platonic works boomed; I knew I had a fanbase that wanted to read what I wanted to write.

But along with the obvious “you should write for yourself first and foremost,” a small upside can be that if a reader does like your fic, they’ll probably appreciate it A LOT MORE than the shippers do with their shipfics. Because they’re practically swimming in content, they get can get really picky can even downright mean about free writing. Whereas I have never, ever received a bad or rude review about someone who shares my brotp.

[rahab-of-the-sea]

Bit of a vent so ill be cutting it here. Kinda negative but not like negative negative if that makes sense.

Right so work has been brutal on me. Like I mean its very toxic and not good for me or my mental health. I’m just glad I’ve got a kick ass friend at work that helps keep me going.

In short I’ve just been getting verbally abused and intimidated left right and center and what makes it worse is my work is to support those in need. I work Nightshift so all the other staff think that just because I do nightshift means that they can blame me for everything. I literally mean everything. The worst part of this is the supervisor in my unit is ANTI GAY! Shes apart of that Hillsong church bs and look I think its fine if you are into all that stuff but don’t treat me like shit and assume my sexuality. Like the worst thing she has done is literally called me a liar when I told nothing but the truth and bulges her eyes out at me while hands are on hips and shes literally standing over the top of me.

Whats even worse is I’ve only just started to get proper hours again due to the unit I’m working in just being opened up. Its been what...a week and its already this bad? The staff there, minus one or two, are really fucking bitchy. Like they are out to cut your fucking throat. I’ve always tried to do the best because in such a work place there are laws and sometimes the others kinda....cut corners? But when I do the right thing its like I’m in massive trouble. So I started to stand up for myself recently and give it back a little in a polite and diplomatic way...or as best as I can.

Honestly its not much progress, they keep treating me like shit and its burnt me out big time. hence why I haven’t been able to post or reply much on here. Its not that I dont have muse for Rahab, but its because they have literally put me through the ringer and expected me to come out all happy and do whatever the hell they say. Well I’m saying no from now on because its putting my damn health at risk. I do 7 nights in a row and honestly its fucking with my sleep pattern and metabolism. Its not good. Ontop of that due to the stress I’m barley able to sleep when I came home. I ended up only being able to sleep like 2 maybe 3 hours per day and thats not good for me.

So I’ve been trying to stay quiet for a while and just work on Kains Tarot card but all the stress has affected me a lot that I’m even struggling to do that.

Whats worse..Work will not let me leave. Yeah its fucked up. The law here states that I can but work is being bitchy about it. I’m trying to get a new job I just hope that I manage to get it by this coming week. So over all this stuff thats been happening to me. Its time to make changes and if it means spitting fire and having smoke coming out of my ears then so be it.

[ellistocracy]

i may be horribly depressed but at least i’m depressed in a shiba inu hoodie

[kaibaxland]

4:30 AM self doubt time I suppose. :/

Feelin’ like my Seto is... Dry. Boring. Whatever.

And just... Brain can you PLEASE stop with thinking I’m going to be abandoned?

PLEASE?

STOP

[zonnebloempjes]

I feel like my I have gotten to a stage with my anxiety where I can't kick it's ass anymore. I know you just gotta keep pushing until it finally backs off but I feel to deprived of energy to do so most days

[saxabones]

(⌣_⌣”)

// probably won’t be doing anything on here today. Sorry for those waiting on threads. Just not feeling well.

I’ll try to work on the expression memes for Reed.

[zonnebloempjes]

The mood in the house is so horrendous lmao I can't wait to escape to school again tomorrow