A person who wishes to stay anonymous approached me via PM and wanted me to share their thoughts with my readers. So, without further ado, here’s what they said.
I'm very new in the SPN fandom - just watched the whole thing through in the last couple of months. I completely fell for Wincest (as anyone with eyes might), started lurking around the Wincest blogs of Tumblr, and inevitably ended up in J2 blogs such as yours before long.
Now, I've seen and done some light RPF shipping before, and that's all I initially thought tinhats are about. People see what they wanna see, overanalyze stuff, you know the drill. All in good fun. But I started to get interested (because "Man, those guys DO touch each other a whole lot") and soon realized that it's a lot more serious than that.
I never thought twice abt the guys' relationship because I knew they have wives and kids, duh. (Which of course is PR's aim.) But getting into all these posts, I started seeing behind the curtain. Ofc I take everything with a bit of salt, it's not my first day on Internet. And some of it is hard to swallow, like the whole idea that someone would choose to live in a sham marriage and have kids in a situation like that, just to hide their true self. It makes me feel claustrophobic just to think about it. But if I was making a hugely popular show about two brothers and it came out that the actors of those brothers are in a relationship? I can understand why TPTB would do anything to keep it under covers, and why J2 can do nothing but go with it if they wanna keep their jobs.
Another thing that shook me about many tinhat blogs was the intense dislike of M. Before, I've been led to believe that he's this quirky, sweet, funny dude whom everyone likes, pretty much. And obviously, since I've only actually been in the fandom for about 5 minutes, I'm mostly going on what I've read from various blogs, but I gather that he likes to tease D*st*el to the fans a lot, which Jensen (and I'm guessing Jared) are pretty opposed to. And it hurts my heart that someone I've thought of as a genuinely good guy would keep making his friend uncomfortable like that. And in the light of tinhat theories, it starts to look downright rude, no matter how great a guy he might otherwise be.
Thus leading me to my point, a post that I saw today that finally fully converted me, too, into a tinhat. http://maspwinj2.tumblr.com/post/169042706426/so-there-have-been-moments-about-jensen-not-liking As the OP explains, the gifs are from directly after M clung to Jensen on-stage at a con. If you watch the video, people are laughing when Jared takes a swing at Misha, but even tho I'm not an expert at body language, it's obvious he's not joking around. And even though Misha keeps smiling, his body language is extremely alarmed, he knows he fucked up. It's not a funny moment, but it tells more than a million words could about how exactly Jared feels about someone upsetting Jensen, and after seeing that, I'm a 100% believer. So congrats, you've gained a new tinhat. I'll be lurking!
Thank you, anon! It sounds like you've figured out the basics quite quickly, which leads me to believe you’re a smart one. Welcome to our house! This is definitely not the most comfortable room to claim - the shelves are filled with happy pictures of our lovely couple, but there are just as many unsent, tear-stained letters in the desk drawer. The chairs are hard, but the bed is soft and the linens silky. And then there’s that god-damned roommate that yells drunken insults through the door in the dead of night.
Following the J’s life together isn't easy at all, and to care about them deeply means to suffer on regular basis. It’s worth it to me. Their love is sunshine and double rainbows, the PR schemes are mud and blizzards.
ANYWAY, sorry about my weird rambles. I’m glad you shared your thoughts with me. Things are indeed not as they might seem. I hope you stick around - there’s a lot of things yet to discover and I bet most of them are lovely. Have a very lovely 2018, anon!
PS: @maspwinj2 You might want to know you've converted yet another person. ;)