you thought it would be fun to entertain the idea of having someone love you without expecting anything in return, to wait for you for as long as she could. you saw her as one of those women who waited on the widow’s walk, waiting for a whisper from her loved one.
you thought it would be fun to run away with her heart, wrapping your fingers around it in a tight clasp as your feet took you further away from her. you never saw her, just the shell that protected her essence from the world.
you are not deserving, she thought. she took a few steps away from you.
you thought that she came back because of the meaningless words you spoke about second chances, taking her presence for granted. “she will always be here.”
you thought that she hung on every word that you said, and she did. for a while. but when she revisited those memories, she realised how empty those words felt. what felt like a cool embrace against her skin, a warm embrace, now felt like a sudden splash of cold water.