“No!” With a strangled gasp, Laurent lurched, suddenly finding himself sitting up in bed. His chest heaved with each breath he took in, the air leaving him shakily as he raised a trembling hand to his head, brushing the sweat-soaked hair out of his eyes and up off his face. For a moment, he didn’t dare move, only allowing his eyes to dart about the tent to carefully taking a tally of those around him. His heart hammered painfully against his ribs as something in his throat grew thicker with each form under blankets he counted off. It wasn’t until he’d gone over the entire tent thrice that he felt his muscles finally start to relax.
Everyone – at least everyone around him – was still here.
Releasing a breath he didn’t realise he’d suddenly been holding, the young mage pulled his legs to his chest and wrapped his arms tightly around them. With his eyes closed, he buried his face in his knees, trying to force back the dark images from his dream. As the minutes past, the trembling of his limbs began to cease and his pulse slowly returned to normal. Alas, it didn’t feel as if he’d be lulled back into anytime soon.
Heaving a heavy sigh, Laurent carefully felt the ground beside him, feeling a dulled sense of satisfaction when the tips of his fingers brushed against his glasses. Sliding the spectacles up the bridge of his nose, he carefully disentangled himself from his blanket and stood up, giving the tent another once-over. Being caught awake at this hour of the night would only lead to questions he wasn’t certain he had the current mind to answer.
Once he was assured that he’d woken no one with his outburst, he grabbed the thick tome that sat above his pillow and made his way around the edge of the tent. It only took him a few minutes to dance around the sleep-sprawled figures of his comrades, and soon he was standing outside under the pale light of the moon. The night air felt chilly against his sweat-coated skin, but it only came as a welcome relief against the musky interior he'd just escaped.
After casting a glance around the area before him, Laurent slowly walked over to an abandoned log and sat down. The tome in his arms was hugged firmly against his chest with the top of the spine hovering just below his nose. As he allowed his eyes to flutter closed, he inhaled deeply, taking comfort in the familiar aroma of aged parchment pages. Letting loose yet another sigh, he loosened his grip on the book, letting it fall into his lap, opening to a random page. As long as he was awake, he might as well make use of the time and review his most recent notes.
It was his dull hope that, maybe, the facts might offer his brain some solace and finally calm down. He was already well-aware that none of the other occupants of the children’s camp were missing, and if he listened carefully enough, he could hear the low, murmuring voices of the current night-watch. Everyone was still in the camp, no one was missing, and he most certainly wasn’t alone. Yet, even as he brushed his finger under the dark lettering of his own script, he couldn’t fully fight off the heavy weight that plagued his chest. He knew all too well just how easily and quickly anyone could be lost to the cruel hand of war.
It only took one incident, a single slip up, and it was very possible he could be left completely alone. Just as it had been in his nightmares for so long...