#shadow's thoughts

[cosmic-hedgie]

The stars on my ceiling are very comforting to see when I'm trying to relax for bed. I've been sleeping a little better lately so sometimes I don't get a chance to look at them long enough before I doze off.

[astoldbycrimson]

Shadow's Thoughts

My lips on her neck, Hands tight at her waist; I can't, I can't— My body yearning, Heart beating for her alone; I shouldn't, I shouldn't— Her hands in my hair, Body pressed against mine; I couldn't, I couldn't— The taste of her lips, The smell of her skin; I won't, I won't— U N W O R T H Y; I mustn't give in. Unlawful; The ultimate sin. "Forget the oath, Break the rules, My heart beats And my body aches for you." Oath breaker; Her lips against mine. Virtue taker; Our bodies intertwine.

[called-to-the-darkness]

[The next couple days for Soul is..... Weird- it feels almost wrong because she knew she didnt actually have to go out and do anything, she'd been doing that for so long that basically having an entire day to herself just felt wrong]

[It still was like this numb feeling about it all, again, part of her almost was relief that it happened this way but at the same time it just felt wrong and not correct]

[So- she'd slightly been on auto pilot, do the same kinda thing and just brush it off as normal and just deal with it (because that what she did for so long this would be fine)]

[called-to-the-darkness]

[Now, Soul would never call herself or think to be clingy, but since everything happened with Icarus it just.....felt nice? And grounding to be near Neth most of the time]

[She still was helping him when he needed it (since he was still healing but was getting better) but other then that she almost always stayed in his vinciniy (unless obviously having to get food and other things)]

[She stayed relatively relax (aside from the couple times Icarus' words repeated in her mind and then she'd be slightly on edge) but she was also sleeping better so all good things for now]

[called-to-the-darkness]

[There was this very very fine line Soul had to walk at the moment- since she knew who hurt Neth this bad but it was a very fine line]

[The more she dwelled and thought on it- the more it just- upset her? But there was nothing- she could actually do about it because even if she did anything- that'd just make her suspicious as to why she cared so much anyway and she'd told Neth she wasn't going to say anything to anyone anyways]

[Some very very small part of her wanted to lash out but she couldn't- that'd just go against everything she was "working for" but the urge was there]

[So- instead it was keeping her awake instead of actually sleeping, granted she hadn't been able to sleep well enough as it was since he got hurt- but was besides the point- and she had just slightly and gently had been pulling at the end of her hair- more out of ground her and keeping her from doing anything rash]

[called-to-the-darkness]

[Its not until after Destr- Neth ends up leaving and she sits on the fact of what all happened that everything kinda dawns on her at once]

[1) she's- actually dating him- the villain she was supposed to turn in and was constantly fighting- the one that saved her]

[2) ....oh god shes dating a villain- a higher known one- which- she shouldn't be doing]

[3) she was gonna have to be careful with this, with being with him and meeting up and being just... them and keeping her cover]

[And the last point was something very clear she was starting to realize as she thought about it more, granted- that shouldn't be that hard....right?]

[called-to-the-darkness]

[Soul had been absent mindedly wandering around the Nether district, mask on for once as her brain wandered]

[Fable had sent her out to go look for any signs of Destruction and where he might have been hiding (and to be quite honest, she wasnt actually looking very well more because of him going at her before for being Mia for 2 days)]

[(To which she brought up getting hit in the back of the head and him not sending anyone to find her anyways) the similarities between Him and Destruction when they meet the first time where kinda there]

[She also was trying to slightly pay attention around to make sure no one snuck up behind her]