#shadywriting

[maevelin]

So excited for your update! I am going to read it NOW! THANK YOU!

Awe thank you! I am hoping that you’ll like it!

[thatshadybaby]

I can't let my fears keep me from living I need to see what the world will be giving

[thatshadybaby]

the voice

theres this voice always nagging in the back of my head saying you should be wishing you’re already dead

but I tip my head back and tune that voice out it’s my own voice that will be heard when I stand tall and shout

you’re not taking control of me i will be my own person i’ll make you see that I’m stronger than this and you’ll finally believe

i can overcome anything that’s bringing me down i can sink the voices i’ll make them drown

when my heads under water you’re all I can see you’re my light in the darkness you help me breathe

but I’m pushed back down when I hear them again when I hear all the lies from my so-called friends

[thatshadybaby]

you sing a sweet symphony to me 

but i'll be the poison that you drink

[thatshadybaby]

just because of your judgments

don't judge me

before you know me

or else i'll just consider you 

below me

i don't deserve 

to think about your words

criticizing my every move

as if you know my life

save the judge work for your honor

you're not a professional

think of me as a fellow human

not a specimen

under a microscope

just because i'm not the same

doesn't mean i'm not worthwhile

differences are what make people real

and your criticisms make me feel

hurt, unwanted, unworthy

just because i'm not the same

doesn't mean i'm not worthwhile

individuality breeds creativity

and your criticisms make me feel

empowered, unique, worthy

keep on talking, thinking and judging

because then i'm still on your mind

i'm always be on your radar

and you can't go blind

i missed an opportunity

because of your closed mind

i'm lucky that opportunities are endless

and i'll find mine

it's sad that you seem so nice

yet you have no decency

it's sad that i thought so highly of you

only for you to prove me wrong

just because i'm not the same

doesn't mean i'm not worthwhile

differences are what make people real

and your criticisms make me feel

hurt, unwanted, unworthy

just because i'm not the same

doesn't mean i'm not worthwhile

individuality breeds creativity

and your criticisms make me feel

empowered, motivated, worthy

[thatshadybaby]

Reasons why

They say that everything happens for a reason Well I'm struggling to find the reason this happened My brain can't discover exactly why this occurred But will finding out the why give me the answer? I can blame it on a who, a what, a when But I'll just keep asking why There comes a time when ill need to stop with the questions Stop seeking for answers And settle on the what if I don't Ask why

[thatshadybaby]

runaway

you can run away as far as you want to

but the feelings always linger

[thatshadybaby]

put it down

i try to put my grudges down but it’s hard not to keep them around i don’t want to hold these weights anymore

because my anger hides behind my eyes and tongue when I see you Hear you Think of you

I just want to be left alone But I know you need me to feel better I know I make you feel at home But sometimes lonely is what I need I can’t keep up with your emotional speed