#shameless 11x08

[sickness-health-all-that-shit]

Shameless s11e08 | Cancelled

[missdavonne]

Shameless S11E08 - Cancelled

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shameless 11x08

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tt: @miIkovichi

[mickeysmyheart]

Please have mercy on me

This is a short one shot following 11x08 so if you didn't watch it yet then avoid this until you do since there are spoilers in it!

Summary: Mickey can’t believe his eyes. Terry’s dead.

Notes: Hey everyone!

Just thought I'd write a short one shot to fill in a missing scene between when Ian and Mickey find Terry's dead body and then Ian going to the hospital, and what happened when they both were home at the end of it all.

I hope you like this 💖

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Mickey can’t believe his eyes. Terry’s dead. His eyes instantly fill with tears as he looks at his father - a man who has abused him his entire life, a man who couldn’t put his own bigotry aside to love and accept him for who he is, a man who constantly tried to kill him for being who he is - with a plastic bag over his head, his eyes lifeless, his tongue sticking out slightly from his mouth. Mickey feels Ian’s hand touch his shoulder from behind him and the tears just fall from his eyes, sliding down his cheeks. He sniffles and Ian turns him around and wraps him into his arms. Mickey lets himself be embraced by the strong and comforting arms of his husband, letting the tears fall as he cries silently in the crook of Ian’s neck.

Ian’s hand moves up and down his back, soothing him as he holds him tight, whispering into his ear, “I’m here. I love you. We’ll get through this together,” over and over in the softest voice.

A ringing blares through the silence of the moment and Mickey tries to pull away. Ian doesn’t let him so Mickey says, “Ian, answer your phone.”

Ian lets Mickey go so that he can grab his phone from his pocket. “It’s Carl,” he says looking at the screen.

“Answer it,” Mickey nods, wiping away a tear from his eye as he turns back around to look at his lifeless father. He can barely register anything Ian’s saying on the phone to his brother after he answers the call with, “This isn’t a good time.” Mickey’s too caught up in his own mind as he continues to look at Terry. He’s wanted his father dead for - God, he can’t even remember how long. The first time he ever thought about his father dying was when he was only four and Terry beat the shit out of his mom. He wasn’t in the room but he could hear her wails and cries, her pleads for him to stop. He curled up in Mandy’s bed with her, holding her close as she cried in his arms. She was only two, and he was only four, and all he could think was please God, kill dad. From them on, everything just got worse. His mother died and Terry focused his abuse on him and Mandy instead. Mickey thought every day how he wished something would land on his head and kill him, or a deal would go bad and he’d get shot, or he’d get put away in prison for the rest of his life. Those thoughts intensified when Mickey realized he’s gay. He knew he could never let Terry find out or he would murder him. He lived years of his life afraid that his father would kill him. He pushed Ian away because of that fear. In the last few years, Terry has tried to make him miserable every step of the way and now that he finally got what was coming to him, Mickey has no idea what to feel. He feels relieved but he also feels devastated. He worked so hard to make sure Terry was being taken care of in his state even though he didn’t deserve it. Mickey vowed that he would be better than his father. He wanted to be a better man, a better husband, a better father one day. Hearing Terry tell him just hours ago that if Mickey wasn’t gay - that he wasn’t who he is - he would have been a decent son. Those words tore Mickey’s heart in half because all he’s ever wanted was to be loved and accepted, and he knew he would never get that, even if he wasn’t gay. Terry was a hateful, spiteful, evil man, and Mickey knows deep down that that would never have changed.

“Mick?” he hears Ian say before he touches his shoulder. Mickey turns around to look at his husband's face, his soft green eyes looking at him with so much love and compassion. “There was an incident at Liam’s school with Frank. Carl brought him to the hospital, everyone’s headed there now.”

“You should go,” Mickey says instantly.

“No, I’m going to stay with you-”

Mickey shakes his head, “No, you should go, be with your family.”

“You’re my family,” Ian tells him, his hand coming up to caress Mickey’s cheek, wiping away some more tears with his thumb.

Mickey smiles at him softly. “I know, but your siblings need you.”

“But-”

“I need to handle this,” he says, nodding his head back towards his fathers dead body behind them. “I’ll be okay, Gallagher. I’ll see you at home later.”

“Are you sure?” Ian asks, his eyes searching Mickey’s.

Mickey shrugs his shoulder, “Not really but we both have responsibilities to our fuckhead fathers so I’ll be fine.”

Ian nods, letting out a deep breath. He leans forward and kisses Mickey’s forehead softly before pressing his forehead against his, “I love you so much.”

“I love you too,” Mickey whispers back.

Ian pulls back to look at him, his hand still holding his face. “I’ll see you at home. Call me if you need anything. I’ll be quick, promise.”

“Okay.” And with that Ian rushes out the door to head to the hospital. Mickey takes a deep breath before turning back around to see Terry.

Sister Mary-Luke comes back into the house and she explains what happened. Terry was rude, vile, and just plain evil. He also begged her to be taken out of this life. “He was an evil man and did not deserve the patience and love you were giving him,” she tells him. “He begged for mercy and - well, this isn’t a life worth living, my child. It had to be done.”

Mickey nods, his eyes filling with tears again. He doesn’t blame her. Terry has been begging to die since his shooting. Mickey just never expected it to happen like this and definitely not today.

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Mickey’s glad Ian took the ambulance so it makes it easier for him to call 911. Mickey removes the bag from Terry’s head and closes his eyes and mouth, propping him back up. The EMTs come and Mickey explains how he just arrived back to check in on his father and found him like this. He sent the nun home before they arrived, and he said that he thought his cousins were here watching him. They declared him dead and Mickey bit his tongue from saying no shit. They explained that they would bring his body to the mortuary and that Mickey can go by tomorrow to deal with his body and any plans he has for his funeral.

Mickey thanks them when they leave with his father’s dead body before walking back home. For the first time in a very long time, the house is empty. There’s no life, no sound, nothing that makes this house a home. Mickey trudges up the stairs and makes his way into his room. He strips down before going to take a hot shower. Thankfully there is still hot water and he uses it up as he lets himself cry and cry, letting the water wash away his tears.

He crawls into bed in his boxers and a black tank top, with his phone. He texts his idiot cousin who abandoned him today to tell him Terry’s dead. He also tries calling Mandy. She doesn’t pick up so he leaves her a quick voicemail, “Hey, it’s - uh, it’s Mick. Listen, Terry’s dead. Call me when you can.” He tosses his phone on the bedside table before pulling the covers over his head and praying he can fall asleep and forget this day happened.

*

Mickey wakes up to the feeling of someone curling up behind him. The covers are no longer consuming him so he turns around to see Ian in bed beside him, he’s in his boxers and a t-shirt too, his eyes so soft as he looks at him. “Hey,” he says, his voice horse.

“Hi,” Ian whispers back. “You okay?”

Mickey shrugs. “They took his body to the mortuary. I can go there to deal with it tomorrow.”

“We will go there to deal with it. I’m sorry, I didn’t stay with you,” Ian tells him.

Mickey reaches for his face, pulling him closer. “Don’t be,” he says before kissing Ian softly on the lips. Ian kisses him, his hand pulling him in by the waist. That’s as far as it goes before they just rest their foreheads together. “How’s Frank?”

“He has dementia from being a drunk,” Ian tells him with a sigh.

“Shit.”

“Yeah…”

After a few silent moments, Mickey asks, “Is Liam okay we missed his thing?”

Ian smiles softly which makes Mickey feel a bit better. “He understands. He won the iPad.”

“No shit,” Mickey chuckles. “Good for him.” Ian nods, his smile faltering slightly. “Hey,” Mickey says softly, his hand hooking under Ian’s chin so he looks at him, he has his own tears in his eyes. “Today has been a shitty fucking day,” he says. Ian snorts out a wet laugh before Mickey continues, “But we’ll get through it, together.”

“I should be telling you this,” Ian says, sadly.

“You did, now it’s my turn,” Mickey says softly, caressing his cheek. Even though Frank isn’t Ian’s biological father, he’s been the only father he’s ever had. Frank was a neglectful, alcoholic, junkie, asshole of a father but now that he’s slowly losing his mind, it’s going to be a lot for the Gallaghers to handle, especially his husband, and Mickey is going to be there for him just like he knows Ian will be there for him as he goes through all his feelings and all the planning of his father’s passing.

“I love you,” Ian says softly.

“I love you,” Mickey says back before curling up against Ian’s chest, feeling his arms wrapped around him again. The two of them both silently cry in each other’s arms, letting all the misery they’ve felt for years growing up with abusive fathers and all the sadness they feel over what has and is happening to them, just wash away as they comfort each other, knowing that even through all this pain, there will be light and happiness again, because they have each other, always.

[strangerzaiah]

My headcanon about what happened after they found the body: Ian wrapped his arms around Mickey and turned him so he was looking at him instead of Terry's dead body. He whispered softly to Mickey not to look that way, to just focus on him. Then Ian guided Mickey outside the house and hugged him for a few minutes, not saying much, just letting Mickey calm down and process what had happened. Only when Ian made sure Mickey was somewhat okay, he took care of dealing with Terry's post death arrangements, trying to lessen Mickey's burden as much as he could and just being there for his husband.

[milkeyjehn]

Sandy Milkovich if you're reading this I will never judge you and your history and I will worry about you and I will care about you and maybe even marry you someday if you're into that?

[just-a-glittery-fan]

The evil is defeated!

[lip-gallagher-is-bisexual]

MULTIPLE POINTS ABOUT EPISODE

(11x08)

Under the cut cause spoilers

Just gonna go by character then full thing cause it was such a weird episode idek where to start.

(Youngest to oldest)

Liam: I think this was an interesting storyline for him. He deserves the iPad. He’s a good kid. There’s really nothing I can say for him besides I’m proud. I loved the Ian and Liam bond and it must be scary for hun to see Frank go through this. For as long as he’s been alive he’s known Frank has his in and out indestructible alcoholic father and now he’s... not. Now he’s finally failing and that isn’t something Liam was ever used to growing up.

Carl: I think his story was actually nice! He’s finally learning that family comes first. He crashed a Ferrari and risked his job for family and there’s not much more I can say. I think his was fine and it wasn’t overly interesting but it was a nice story for him. He’s naive but he wouldn’t give up family for some douchebags and that’s what matters.

Debbie: what was the point of that omg. Why would they make a lesbian comfortable with her sexuality have sex with a gay man. There was no point to that entire thing. She was very immature this episode and was very annoying. Her abandonment issues are valid but they don’t give her free will to act like this. I honestly can’t blame her for saying what she said to sandy. Her entire story this episode was weird and there was no point in making her fuck a married gay man AS A LESBIAN.

Ian and Mickey/Terry: putting the three of them together because... well ya know. Mickey has such a big heart I love him so much. Even after everything he cares about everyone who’s hurt him and it HURTS. The comment about “you could have been a good son if you weren’t gay,” and the “well you could have been a good dad...” I cried. I didn’t want to say it but I think Terry regrets it. Not because he’s a good person but because he’s on his death bed. He knows he fucked up and he knows that because of what he is as a person no one wants to help him. No one but his gay son. Noels acting was amazing in this episode and I love that he expressed so much emotion with just his eyes. The Ian and Mickey scenes were really cute and they are a couple, they tease each other and joke about growing old. Ian hit Mickey with the money and they are just domestic little assholes. Mickeys face when he sees Terry dead... he was so worried and he just wanted to make sure he was okay, then he finds him dead. I will talk about his death in another portion.

Lip/Brad/Tami: I’m glad they didn’t give Mickey up but Tami was so annoying sorry 💀. Girl moved some boxes and suddenly thinks she’s some crime god. No babe you just developed some common fucking sense. Talking about killing brad? Chill tf out. They are giving us things to make us like her (those who don’t) but it’s just making it worse. I don’t have much to say but she’s just annoying.

Kev and V: YES! They got married im so happy for them. I wish we could have seen it though. I really do. Veronica looked amazing though! Kev kinda looked like a pimp 💀

Frank: this hits close to home. Ive grown up with parents very similar to Frank and Monica. Her funeral hit close to home and Frank is making me think of my own dad. It’s hard to see Frank fail and forget things. When they found out about the dementia it was so emotional for me. Theres not much I can say because I’m still processing it.

Terry pt.2: his death was so... unfulfilling. Making a nun kill him. It just, it was disappointing and happened so quick. I think they should have made him gain enough momentum to tip his wheelchair over and kill himself. I think it would have been so much more fulfilling.

This was a filler episode and theres not much more I can say. It was boring but there was some good plot points in there. I think it will be very cool to see how the other episodes build off of it. It’s not my favorite but it’s definitely not my least favorite. I would prob rate it maybe a 4-6/10.

If you made it this far ily! Have a great day.