#shapay

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" Where do we put all the grieving that we can not release? There are memories of previous losses, painful and debilitating, but they have all let me pass by with time. This that I have now are cumbersome like blocks of rocks placed around me. They cannot be placed along the walls as reminders of my failures, but wherever I move and go I have to climb over them, shimmy between them, teasing my skin again again. My space are filled with them, and thet are too heavy to move. "

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Yes, Anaïs, I was thinking how I could betray you, but I can't. I want you. I want to undress, vulgarize you a bit - ah, I don't know what I am saying. I am a little drunk because you are not here. I would like to clap my hands and, voilá - Anaïs! I want to own you, use you. I want to fuck you, I want to teach you things. No, I don't appreciate you - God forbid! Perhaps I even want to humiliate you a little - why, - why? Why don't I get down on my knees and just worship you? I can't. I love you laughingly. Do you like that? And dear Anaïs, I am so many things. You see only the good things now - or at least you lead me to believe so. I want you for a whole day at least. I want to go places with you - possess you. You don't know how insatiable I am. Or how dastardly. And how selfish!

Henry Miller, A Literate Passion: Letters of Anais Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953

[forevermeraki]

YOU GUYS. I FINALLY FOUND OUT WHY SHARPAY IS NAMED SHARPAY IN HSM. Shes rich rich right? SharPAY. I JUST.