truee except I can’t be sad for him bc he’s a raging asshole through and through and I am especially aware of this when we’re Meant to feel sorry for him given how frequently that happens (as opposed to for his more blink-and-you’ll-miss-it instances of vulnerability)
relatable? very much so in certain lights. but I am only ever sad for him during occasional gaps between moments that I can’t articulate bc they are so fleeting and also he doesn’t need any more sympathy it’s made his head swell up to the size of a planet
any twisted sympathy I feel for him can only be safely expressed when I’m writing him and even then I’m not sure how it comes out on the page. I think people who don’t love him (yet or at all) can’t see it bc it’s layered into the scary soup. I hope some of you see it though bc he is vewy special to me and I like putting my whole hand inside him




















