there is always room for improvement😁😜
i was extremely disappointed in myself since yesterday evening as i got a bit nervous and messed up sth despite giving my best. it was sth i had been working on for ages. it preoccupied me, directed my mind towards all the negatives (detected a snowball effect), snapped at my folks— definitely wasn’t a good headspace to be in.
so, i decided to sit with myself and did a bit of self reflection which made me realise that i had actually made progress compared to how i was a couple years back. the disappointment wasn’t because i hadn’t made any progress but because i wasn’t where i wanted to be yet as far as that particular skill was concerned. then, i understood that i wasn’t giving myself enough credit for the progress i had already made so far instead i was just being UNREASONABLY demanding on myself.
my takeaway from this is:
it is okay to screw up and get nervous even with the fears, shortcomings, etc. that you thought you had already conquered, mastered or sorted out. you got to be PATIENT, UNDERSTANDING and KIND to YOURSELF— you might not always have someone to remind/reassure you and so when you don’t, you need to tell it to yourself. it is so IMPORTANT to give yourself credit for all your small wins while working towards the main goal.
what is not okay— is to beat yourself up for it, to get intimidated by it and to STOP pursuing it cause there is always ROOM for IMPROVEMENT.
yep- i got nervous, i messed up and i could’ve been better. i can be a nervous wreck AT TIMES but i’m not a nervous wreck ALL THE TIME. and eh, i was forgetting that i was much worse and as a matter of fact i’ve made progress for which i should give myself a pat on my back and be happy & thankful.
all is said and done, it’s time to address the elephant in the room- what can i do to improve? gotta dive right into that now.
happy weekend, guys!