Oh Good Grief...
It was 2 nights ago that I lay in bed with my daughter tucked inside my arm when that sinking feeling of ‘grief’ creeped in. Perhaps it was the fact I had left my love with his iPhone and classic rock stream, feeling once again unappreciated and ignored because of the technological advances we choose over people nowadays ( me included mind you). Or perhaps I was just missing my mom... or maybe it was the fact that I feel like I am walking away from a digital world and into a musical world where nothing is safe, calculated, or secure.... But really is anything safe, calculated or secure and the answer is of course, “no”.
We are vapors just caught up in the winds of change. Maybe we enjoy the way we are blown sometimes or maybe we do not want to go in a certain direction and we resist. Whatever it is that Divine Wind will blow even if you are not ready. As one who desires to dance with my Creator through life... I can say that sometimes that dance is hard. I want to be a wallflower. Tucked away like I was in high school. The girl .... the one who didn’t drink and the one who had no date for the prom. Oh Good Grief , Charlie Brown!
Ok enough of that... funny thing is .. 2 days later I’m still in a what I feels like a state of “grief”. I think yes, I miss my mom terribly but I also sense there is more loss on the horizon. I think the picture sums it up best...
Until next time-
Coco