Somewhere only we know
Listen to somewhere only we know by Keane (:
I stare blankly at the e-mail in front of me, in my five years of being a marketing director I never believed that this job could bite me this hard in the ass. Out of all the venues in the world he had to come to ours. I fight the lump that swells in my throat, I refuse to cry over him anymore.
I jump once I hear my phone buzz across my coffee table, its my best friend/ coworker Ronnie. I take a deep breath and hit the green answer button on the screen.
“Hello.”
I silently curse at myself for sounding so fragile. This can't be happening I can't go threw the pain of missing him anymore.
“Did you see the email Vick sent out?” Her voice is shaky and filled with concern.
“Im looking at it right now.” I scroll back to the top of the message just to make sure I'm not completely losing my mind. Maybe I read it wrong, maybe its a different Shawn?
“Are you okay y/n?”
I take a shaky breath trying to compose myself, but its too hard its always so fucking hard. I let myself break and before I know it I feel the tears roll down my cheeks.
“I was doing fine, I was moving on and now, now I have to see him again. Ronnie, I don't think I can do this.”
“You won't have to do it alone y/n. Ill be there with you, if it becomes too much for you just put your hand on my shoulder and I will take over.”
“It never use to be like this, he was my best friend and now I can't even say his name without crying.” I let Ronnie continue to console me as my mind begins to wander. I still remember one of the last conversations we had
It was the summer before my sixteenth birthday, I was alone in my room one night just listening to music and enjoying the breeze that flew in from the outside.I heard a loud ding come from my pocket, pulling out my phone I smiled once I realized who the notification was from.
Shawn: Hey, I know its late right now but do you think we could talk?”
I scrunched my eyebrows in concern hoping that the boy was okay.
y/n: Of course we can, do you want me to call you?
He responded a lot faster than I had expected
Shawn: Come to your window.
I rushed over to my window and peaked out. A young Shawn stood with his hands tucked into his pockets, a hood covering his curly brown hair. He lifted his pinky and thumb bringing them to his ear as a way to show me that he wanted me to call him. I quickly got back on my phone, clicking his name and watching him dig his phone out of his hoodie.
“Hey.” he answered
“Hey, why didn't you tell me you were coming?”
“I didn't even know I was coming, I went for a walk and just ended up here.”
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah, I just really needed to see you.” My heart began to race, I tried to hide the grin that danced across my face.
“I see you.” I giggle
“Can I come up?” His voice is shaky, something is definitely wrong
I looked over my shoulder and noticed my bedroom door was open a crack, I quickly ran to close and lock it behind me.
“Yeah, just as long as you promise not to bust your shit like the last time.”
“First of all that wasn't even my fault, you made me laugh and I got distracted.”
“Whatever you say Mendes, just try to be quiet.”
“Alright I'm coming.” He hangs up and I quickly throw on my favorite bunny slippers. I open the window wider, carefully making my way out to the roof and situate myself. I can hear Shawn climbing his way up from the shed on the side of my house. I chuckle once I hear a loud bump and a frustrated Shawn haarshley shout. “fuck”
He peaks out from the corner of the house rubbing his knee. I try my best not to laugh but fail miserably. He hangs onto the side of the house as he makes his way to sit next to me.
“I told you not to-” he pushes his finger to my lips and shushes me
“Don't say anything.” we both chuckle
“Nice fit.” I look down at my pjs and bunny slippers
“Who dragged who out of their home at 1:00 Am?”
“Im kidding you look cute.” He's my friend, he's my friend, he's my friend.
“So whats going on?” He pulls his knees into his chest copying me.
“I got into a fight with my parents.”
“What about?” He looks up at the stars taking a long breath
“You're my best friend and you know I would never start anything I couldn't finish. Ive been spending last more time with my guitar, I've been practicing with my voice just to see what I can actually do and Ive come a long way. I think I could go further y/n. I told my parents I don't think Ill be going to college and they flipped out. They support my dream, and they believe in me but they just want me to have a plan B ya know? I just have this feeling that Im not supposed to be here the rest of my life. Ive never had a passion like this before y/n and I want to try to make it, I know thats stupid.”
“Shawn that is not stupid, you are so talented. I know I always joke around that you sing and play too much when we hang out but you are amazing. I have so much faith in you Shawn. There is no doubt in my mind that you could make it big one day.”
“Really?” He gently pushes his shoulder against mine
“Yes! you should start writing your own music.”
“I don't think I could do that.”
“The hell you couldn't.”
“y/n be quiet your parents are going to hear you.” he laughs
“I don't care, stop doubting yourself. You're amazing and you can do anything you put your mind too. Just try it out, yeah its going tour hard at first but over time you will learn and get better. You should start posting your covers, get your name out there. And five years into the future when you win your first grammy you can thank me and say, wow that y/n girl really knew what she was talking about.”
“I love you so much, I want you in my life forever y/n.”
“You mean that?” I whisper
“With all my heart. You're the best friend I have ever had, you're the only person who encourages me to take a risk, to go after my dreams. I don't know what I would do without you.” We just stare at each other for awhile, God I never want him to stop looking at me like that. The smile on both our faces never drop. He slowly leans down till his back is flat on the roof, he opens his arms and looks at me.
“Come here.” He says gently I have to hold myself from flinging my body into his arms. I rest my head on his chest, his heart is beating fast. I lay my hand on his tummy, he quickly picks my hand up and intertwines my fingers with his.
“you know what?” he whispers
“What?”
“If this dream of mine comes true..”
“When your dream comes true, not if.”
“If, this dream of mine comes true, I promise you I will get the both of us out of here. You can come on tour with me and write to your hearts content. Ill make a kick ass album, you'll release a beautiful book and we can just spend the rest of our days doing what we love, traveling the world together.”
“You have this all planned out don't you?”
“Of course I do, its me and you till the end.”
“Even if I get so big my books become movies, and I have to leave you to direct them, and then I eventually fall in love with one of the actors on set and-”
Now its his turn to cut me off. “Y/N no matter what ends up happening I will aways love and be here for you.”
“No matter what?” I ask
“No matter what, we have nothing to worry about, nothing can tear us apart. When we both make our dreams come true we can disappear to a place only we know the world is ours y/n.” Shawn pulls me closer to his chest, he continues to look up at the stars and sighs in content
“Lets stay out here as long as possible, the stars are perfect tonight.”
He doesn't break contact with the stars while I look up at him. I look at him in awe.
“Perfect, you could say that again.”
Im pulled back to reality once I hear Ronnie shouting my name.
“I’m sorry I got distracted, what did you say?”
“I said we should go to the pier to get your mind off things. The stars are supposed to be perfect tonight.”
“Perfect, I doubt that.”
the end
HELLO EVERYONE!!!! I hope y'all enjoyed Should I do a part two where y/n and Shawn see each other after all these years?? Let me known in the comments below!!!! (:
